There are really so many things in my life which i really felt like i wanted to do, but still ended up not doing. why? probably its because sometimes i can't get my lazy bum to move. or the enthusiasm dies off really quickly. many things would have been quite different, if i had bothered to make the difference for myself. Ah.

I don't know why, but i feel like i'm more lonely these days. even though i'm like the only child or whatever, i haven't felt this way in a really long time? i feel like i'm not as close to certain people anymore, and sometimes i find it hard to continue conversations, because i'm missing out on so many of their lives. i'm trying to accept it as part and parcel of being detached from the civilian world, due to my duty to this country (sense of patriotism starting to sink in), but aye. its difficult at times. is this some transition phase or what? i'm still trying to figure. and somehow i feel like i'm lacking something in my life, though i have always said that its not the time. the lack of a special someone.
anyway, here's something.

quote Marcus's dad, "I'm already 50, and the average life span of a human is about 70 to 80 years old. So i only have this amount of time left to live, so please treasure this time that i have left!" his way of improving communication in the family. Sounds funny, but at the same time it strikes me. my parents are already 50 plus? and i guess your parents are around this age as well. another personal reminder: treasure your parents.

the next few weeks in ocs are gonna be much tougher. God please give me the strength to go ahead, amidst the struggles i will face.

man utd for the premiership and the champions league!

Labels: mymainframe.

There are really so many things in my life which i really felt like i wanted to do, but still ended up not doing. why? probably its because sometimes i can't get my lazy bum to move. or the enthusiasm dies off really quickly. many things would have been quite different, if i had bothered to make the difference for myself. Ah.

I don't know why, but i feel like i'm more lonely these days. even though i'm like the only child or whatever, i haven't felt this way in a really long time? i feel like i'm not as close to certain people anymore, and sometimes i find it hard to continue conversations, because i'm missing out on so many of their lives. i'm trying to accept it as part and parcel of being detached from the civilian world, due to my duty to this country (sense of patriotism starting to sink in), but aye. its difficult at times. is this some transition phase or what? i'm still trying to figure. and somehow i feel like i'm lacking something in my life, though i have always said that its not the time. the lack of a special someone.
anyway, here's something.

quote Marcus's dad, "I'm already 50, and the average life span of a human is about 70 to 80 years old. So i only have this amount of time left to live, so please treasure this time that i have left!" his way of improving communication in the family. Sounds funny, but at the same time it strikes me. my parents are already 50 plus? and i guess your parents are around this age as well. another personal reminder: treasure your parents.

the next few weeks in ocs are gonna be much tougher. God please give me the strength to go ahead, amidst the struggles i will face.

man utd for the premiership and the champions league!

Labels: mymainframe.