thought and talked about quite a fair bit of it today.

i think its just quite upsetting, wouldn't use the word pissing off, when i think about how unfair it actually is, how selfish the person actually being.

i've been in this for much too long.

but i'm reluctant to head for greener pastures. sigh.

sorry i'm abit harsh with my words today. haha. just had to say it.

anyway you know about the girl who collapsed today at the track? my friend's her distant cousin. she passed away. do pray for her soul.

how unpredictable life can be ):

i think i've learnt something.

why would you want to hate someone, when you realise that loving that person is so much better. and you feel so much better, because hating takes alot of energy. certainly i'm not the kind that can sustain hate.

and then again, why would you want to love someone, when you realise that love is not something that might be reciprocated. and then you just fall deeper and you keep getting hurt. whats the point?

lovehate. so closely interlinked.

all i can tell myself now is.

care about CTs!

the rest, i'll just let it go.

hurrah. 10 more days to go.

TIME. WHY ARE YOU FLYING SO FAST!

i haven't had my fun! i haven't slacked enough! argh. back to lessons tmr already, how nice. spa in one week and cts in 2 weeks, how nice. double argh! time to get your act together people. haha.

had a pretty good chinese new year this year! i gambled the most this year, and in addition won the most i've ever won. plus, i broke my angpao money record this year again, which is good. haha. BUT I CAN NEVER BEAT SHIXUAN WAHAHAHA.

woops i didn't say anything. haha.

i have LOADS OF cny goodies at home omg. got already 2 boxes of bahkua and then my uncle gave us another box of kim hock guan bahkua. can die! REALBAHKUA ROCKS. hahaha. i dunno how we're gonna finish everything man, i even had to eat bahkua with bread just now for dinner. lol. and then after that i binged on quite alot of cashew nuts again, but still left sooo much. you guys had better come to my house soon to help eat. haha.

well thank goodness there was x-country today. felt so much less guilty after running, but then also no use, considering the amount i ate just now, plus my pastamania lunch. oh well. anyway i came in 88th! sucha lucky number right. was supposed to come in 86th, but then this guy's ass was blocking me at the finish line after i stopped. so 2 people from behind just chionged past and took the tags. hahah. oh well doesn't matter.

WATCHED DREAM GIRLS!! omg its such a good movie, because of the singing of course. the storyline kinda sucked though, but there were quite a few bitchy parts and all. haha. jennifer hudson is so zaiii omg. go catch it! worth the money. haha. even when the actors are scolding each other they sing. kinda funny haha.

ok i'm feeling tired. dunno whether i should catch the liverpool barca game later. hmm.

YAY i blogged. haha. haven't blogged since sunday if you haven't realised.

alright shall stop here for now. school tmr )):

HAPPY NEW YEAR! to all you chinese out there. haha.

well i've started the year of the pig by pigging out with lots of cashew nuts, and now i'm starting to feel the effects of it. headache rah. wanted to exercise just now, but was too tired due to last night's session. lol. so i just fell asleep on my bed ):

i told my mum i'm gonna try to exercise every single day of the chinese new year period. they say it on the tv that we should too! haha.

anyway dinner was hmm as normal. same dishes as every year, grandma's specialties. however this year i got super pissed by my grandfather, and i shan't say why. cos actually now i'm not really angry about it already, so thank god. lol.

OH. and i've got my first 2 angpaos already. YAYAY.

okay i'm off now. have fun during your holiday gaypartner!

and to everyone.

GONGXIFACAIWANSHIRUYIMONEYMONEY! enjoy your new year (:

first, put your hands together and go, "the beacon of light and truth". then you go, TWISHTWISHTWISH. hahaha. omg so dumb. kenny's lovely expression.

choir bbq was quite fun in all. the food was good, games too. needless to say the excessive dunking and the soccer! hahah. seriously ecp is a cursed place for me, cos i split my pants again! my nice board shorts. haha. bet you all didn't know that, cos i concealed so well. hehehe.

okay its not really something to be proud oh well.

then stayed over at sx's house with kenny and zha. had quite alot of fun talking and laughing, as usual. WE NEED MORE NIGHTS LIKE THIS.

okay shan't blog too much. i'm in the midst of cleaning my room but i got too lazy so i'm slacking my ass off now. hahah. REUNION DINNERRRRR ARGHH FATTT.

and vegeterian bahkua sucks. hahah. SORRY SX (:

later ppl!

some people just can't stop using the word thunderous to describe me. haha. shan't tell you guys why. GO FIGURE!

today was totally SIANED out. as in referring to lessons. everything was either econs or physics, totally stoned to death. slept during econs, stoned during tutorials and physics lecture as well. its like as good as ponning school can. haha. and then after school there was musicfest auditions! me and sindhu did quite well, but may not get in, due to some complications. shan't talk about it. tough competition man! melodie and ween, pro people. hahah. shall let god decide.

went to pp to buy gifts for angel and mortal! omg i so nice can. spend so much money on the gifts. i really damn pokkai already after this week, i think i spent at least a hundred bucks!! freakin hell. haha. and my wallet is empty now. like totally. thats partly why i'm forced to go lunch with my parents tmr! haha.

yay so exciting i ponning school tmr. first time in my entire life. i'm such a guaikia don't you agree.

okay dunno what to blog already. i'm TIRED rawr.

cya peeps.

i was listening to songs from my mp3 on the way back just now, after walking sindhu home. and its like, being lost in this world of your own. then you get this kind of hmm bittersweet feeling, although the lyrics makes you a lil sad and emo, you don't feel like coming back to the real world which you belong to. hard to understand? haha. nevermind then.

had dinner at thaipan with sindhu, kenny, jialing, rayrin, huping, may just now. before we entered into the restaurant i managed to look up into the sky, and there was only 1 single star shining above, in the huge sky. its like a lonely being, lost in a world of sadness. but then after dinner when all of us looked up, the sky was filled with an uncountable amount of stars! haha. and jialing was like wow and they just stoned at the sky for awhile. suddenly the lonely being realises that there are indeed many friends in this world which he can count on.

well. just a funny analogy of mine. i think god blessed valentines with a star-filled sky today! great.

thank you thank you thank you for all the cookies, the chocolates, sweets, messages, items, the pig etcetcetc. really makes a difference, to know that you're loved by so many friends. haha. now an entire section of my fridge is stocked with all the goodies, and i've got cookies all over my table. lol. i'm never gonna be able to finish all of them.

anyway, 2 messages got me thinking. both told me not to change the way i am now. haha. then i started to ponder, am i still gonna be this crappy and retarded and sick and whatever in a few years time? i'm sure the deeper side of me will always be there. lol. wonder if i'll keep the funny side. HOPEFULLY i will. i don't want myself to change. nope.

aye musicfest duet tmr. hope i don't let sindhu down! ): you're a great singer bhaarrati. haha.

I Will Fly - Ten2five

You know all the things I’ve said
You know all the things that we have done
And things I gave to you
there’s no chance for me to say
How precious you are in my life
And you know that is true

To be with you is all that I need
‘cause with you my life seems brighter
and these are all the things I wanna say, hey

I will fly into your arms
And be with you to the end of time
Why are you so far away
You know it’s very hard for me to get my self close to you

You’re the reason why I stay
You’re the one who can not believe
Our love will never end
Is it only in my dream ?
You’re the one who can not see this

How could you be so blind
To be with you is all that I need
‘cause with you my life seems brighter
And these are all the things I wanna say, hey

I will fly into your arms
And be with you to the end of time
Why are you so far away
You know it’s very hard for me to get my self close to you.
why are you making me cling on?

ok seriously i should stop being distracted from my work when CTs are coming so soon! rawr. but today i totally lost focus in everything cos there was only one thing on my mind, MUSICFEST AUDITIONS.

glad i did well (i hope i did) and hopefully i'll get into the semis! haha guess i was emo-ing on stage, like all you people could see. emoboy in the making? sx says i already am one. lol. ah well, at least i can breathe a huge sigh of relief now! wasn't really nervous on stage, though i ALMOST forgot my lines at one point in time, due to some unforeseen reason. gosh.

after that went giant shopping with sx and nova! bought chocolates for S64 for valentines! THEY ARE EXPENSIVE OKAY. hahahah. erhem. yea then headed for dinner and then walked around a little bit more. sx and i were chatting alot, sorry nova! haha.

and then later on i headed to conference hall with zeyi and darryl, to watch cathigh band in action! they were having their syf practice so i decided to go watch (although stupid yizha pangsehed). haha dunno what to say bout the band though, except erm, quite terrible ): but nevermind its okay! still got 2 months before syf. can chiong. GO BAND!

aye the golden generation. passed. lol. but i remember cathigh band tradition is always, sound like shit at first, but last min chiong till gold with honours. BAD HABIT.

followed them back to cat high to listen to mrheng's long speech and all, plus enhao's pep talk. some things never change really, kelvin mark and jiawei should know what i'm talking about. stuff like.

"you don't come for your tutorial. you go and pay the tutor yourself ah!"

man i pity eric. go scolded until damn cham, sorta reminded me bout myself last time too, although i didn't tio as bad. haha. oh well, these things just make you stronger.

rawr its 12.23. just came home 45 mins ago. tiredtired. anyway,

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! people.

a time to celebrate friendship and love (: enjoyyourselves. ciao!

today i forgot to bring my wallet and keys, and i realised how handicapped one can be without having these things. thanks to all the people who lent me money and no thanks to the bus uncle who forced me to pay 90 cents for a bus ride of 2 stops. rawr.

bus ride home with danny yuting and zha just now. wasn't feeling emo or anything, just didn't feel like talking, although they were like having this intellectual talk about blahblah and all.

can't deny that sometimes i feel really sad about it. but then its been so long, sometimes i just feel totally numb about it too.

i'm feeling tired again. like yuting said, its unfair to everyone. but someone has to be spat out of the deep sea. i'd rather the sea spit me out right now, otherwise maybe i'll just keep falling in, deeper and deeper..spit me out, so maybe i'll see the sky and breathe in the air above.

man, i don't know what to do. its been totally, a never ending swim.

wonder whats gonna strike me. come wednesday.

argh session. stress.

my 160th post! a new blogging milestone for me. haha.

okay today was seriously damn draining, like all fridays. yesterday couldn't plan session cos i had hw from EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT. even GP la! had to do a freakin hard compre. now i'm stressed over session.

anyway today was still fun cos it was george's birthday! george is a lucky dude man! haha. while he was announcing stuff during assembly the councillors shouted his name, and then someone gave him a barbie balloon that he had to tie around his wrist for the entire day. (which he did) plus he got whacked in the balls by this guy and he collapsed onto the ground. and when some chinese teachers came to show their concern i merely told them, "mei you shi mei you shi, ta the qiu bei da." and what a wrong statement that was i realised after that, cos everyone just burst out into laughter. haha.

of course the main highlight of the day was after the last lesson. first we gave him a major taupok, which shook the entire container block till lim i reen from below came up to take a look. lol. then we blindfolded him and made him walk in circles around the area before settling him down on the grass and pouring him with buckets of water, plus hosing him as well. lol. oh and xiuquan got taupoked twice as well. taupoking is damn fun. hahaha.

okay i dunno what else to say, except HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEORGE!! god bless you always.

tired tired. and i dunno what i'm gonna sing for musicfest again, thanks to the constructive comments of sindhu and zha.

"I'll Be" Goo Goo Dolls

The strands in your eyes
That color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains
Thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows
Of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

emotional song. love it.

ok i'm feeling rather tired now, but just felt like blogging. lol.

this morning was so scary can. was supposed to be at aunty ginger's car by 6.30 and i woke up at 6.25. but me being the calm me didn't panic and quickly went to brush my teeth and change, dumped stuff into my bag and rushed off. and when i reached there it was just on time! phew. haha. my alarm did ring, but i couldn't even hear it. wth. shows how pig i've become.

school school school, nothing significant to mention about. except the stupid PE lesson and the econs lecture, which was supposed to end early, but ended up having to listen to some group present their econs project, which i obviously didn't do. haha. and obviously all of us didn't listen, so we started CAMWHORING omg. here some pictures.


me and xiuquan, insulting each other, as usual. lol.

ting me and xq. my hair's messy. hehe.

this was supposed to be a nice pic. before SOMEONE decided to stick in his finger.

we should camwhore more often next time. so fun. hehe.

time to sleep soon! otherwise tmr morning is gonna be horrific again.

wishing i could be in a dream,

which isn't really fulfilling.

wakeup, wakeup.

i love strumming the accoustic and singing to it. its like a whole different feeling, compared to the classical. lol. i think i know what i'm gonna sing for musicfest already! top secret! heheh. no lah. ask me and you'll find out.

choir today was super tiring, as usual. couldn't really sing properly as well, due to the throatiness i was suffering from. not fully recovered YET. by the time i reached home it was already 9 plus, and i had lonelydinner again, in front of the telly.

feels kinda sad that i always come home and then find myself not having like a brotherorsister to at least make some noise at me. see, i'm going through onlychildemo-ing again. haha. maybe its cos i wish i had someone dear i could hug right now.

freak la. emoemoemo. just like what ricer tagged. haha.

after my bath i almost fell asleep on my bed! but managed to drag myself up in the end to do a substantial amount of RX tutorial. not feeling very accomplished though. lol. and then i couldn't resist the temptation of the fizzyfish i bought from M&S lying on my table. so i decided to open and pop one in. but till now i think i've popped at least 7. haha shit.

late night eating sucks. makes you feel GUILTYY. pigpig.

hmm these days i'm trying to tell myself to stay away, to keep a distance. maybe to just let go. but then somehow at the end of it all i still don't manage to do it. i wonder if its even doing any good for me, staying this way.

i guess i'll just have to hug my noseless dog to sleep.

to yoga tmr and my bed now, here i come!

seeyou people (:

yay blogger is finally back! i thought my blog was like gone for good ): haha then got quite emo about it. like oh no what happens to all my emo posts! lol. but didn't realise it was happening to everyone else's blogs too. okay himboism. bad.

anyway today is another of those totally-drain-you-out kinda days. lessons in school was totally a turn off, esp when we had to withstand 5 straight periods of lessons, which included 3 periods of compre test, 1 period of maths lecture and 1 maths tutorial. almost dieded. then after 1 period break we had chem tutorial, WHICH had a chem test. freakin hell la.

but thank goodness the day ended and some of us happily went to play basketball. haha friday is becoming basketball day for S64. was quite satisfied with the workout i got, my basketball is improving they say! lol. yup so after bball we went to eeloong's house for a short mahjong session before heading for jts. omg EELOONG'S MAHJONG TABLE was totally a COCKROACH NEST LA. i think he didn't take out his table from the back store for years man. all the chip drawers were filled with LIZARD AND COCKROACH SHIT and 2 DRAWERS HAD COCKROACHES INSIDE!! in the end eeloong and his maid turned saviours and exterminated to shit and cockroaches, although one cockroach managed to fly away. CHAO ZAI. hahaha. its was friggin scary. hahah i'm scared of cockroaches. digusting creatures ):

yup so JTS. totally rocked man i must say. we have such a great junior class filled with nice and funny and wacky and bitchy people. haha. PLUS almost all of them turned up, with only the exception of 3 people. we totally shook up the swensons at airport with our chaotic noise and movement. lol. there was massive talking about scandals within our classes as well as within the school, alot of random crapping, games, blah so many things. and junior class has this guy who carries a knife wherever he goes, plus a sharpener to go with it. LOL. so the last time i gave my angel a watermelon, he cut up the watermelon for the entire class to eat. and today my angel GAVE ME A WATERMELON. hahah. and he cut it up for us to eat again, till we were stopped by the swenson's people who kindly reminded us no outside food allowed. haha.

then after that we all went to the viewing gallery to hang out. talked a lil more, played the hand slapping game, did mass dance, took pictures. it was great (: thank you 06s64 people for trying to taopok me and ended up messing my hair which i had to bear with all the way home. hahaha.

praise god for today!

hmm. today when i entered the airport i got this bittersweet feeling. i guess it happens everytime. its like i just feel like boarding a plane and leaving to another country where there will be no worries, great scenery, fun and love.

sense of nostalgia.

and the moments from italy came back again. sigh. miss those times.

will it ever be the same again?

thought and talked about quite a fair bit of it today.

i think its just quite upsetting, wouldn't use the word pissing off, when i think about how unfair it actually is, how selfish the person actually being.

i've been in this for much too long.

but i'm reluctant to head for greener pastures. sigh.

sorry i'm abit harsh with my words today. haha. just had to say it.

anyway you know about the girl who collapsed today at the track? my friend's her distant cousin. she passed away. do pray for her soul.

how unpredictable life can be ):

i think i've learnt something.

why would you want to hate someone, when you realise that loving that person is so much better. and you feel so much better, because hating takes alot of energy. certainly i'm not the kind that can sustain hate.

and then again, why would you want to love someone, when you realise that love is not something that might be reciprocated. and then you just fall deeper and you keep getting hurt. whats the point?

lovehate. so closely interlinked.

all i can tell myself now is.

care about CTs!

the rest, i'll just let it go.

hurrah. 10 more days to go.

TIME. WHY ARE YOU FLYING SO FAST!

i haven't had my fun! i haven't slacked enough! argh. back to lessons tmr already, how nice. spa in one week and cts in 2 weeks, how nice. double argh! time to get your act together people. haha.

had a pretty good chinese new year this year! i gambled the most this year, and in addition won the most i've ever won. plus, i broke my angpao money record this year again, which is good. haha. BUT I CAN NEVER BEAT SHIXUAN WAHAHAHA.

woops i didn't say anything. haha.

i have LOADS OF cny goodies at home omg. got already 2 boxes of bahkua and then my uncle gave us another box of kim hock guan bahkua. can die! REALBAHKUA ROCKS. hahaha. i dunno how we're gonna finish everything man, i even had to eat bahkua with bread just now for dinner. lol. and then after that i binged on quite alot of cashew nuts again, but still left sooo much. you guys had better come to my house soon to help eat. haha.

well thank goodness there was x-country today. felt so much less guilty after running, but then also no use, considering the amount i ate just now, plus my pastamania lunch. oh well. anyway i came in 88th! sucha lucky number right. was supposed to come in 86th, but then this guy's ass was blocking me at the finish line after i stopped. so 2 people from behind just chionged past and took the tags. hahah. oh well doesn't matter.

WATCHED DREAM GIRLS!! omg its such a good movie, because of the singing of course. the storyline kinda sucked though, but there were quite a few bitchy parts and all. haha. jennifer hudson is so zaiii omg. go catch it! worth the money. haha. even when the actors are scolding each other they sing. kinda funny haha.

ok i'm feeling tired. dunno whether i should catch the liverpool barca game later. hmm.

YAY i blogged. haha. haven't blogged since sunday if you haven't realised.

alright shall stop here for now. school tmr )):

HAPPY NEW YEAR! to all you chinese out there. haha.

well i've started the year of the pig by pigging out with lots of cashew nuts, and now i'm starting to feel the effects of it. headache rah. wanted to exercise just now, but was too tired due to last night's session. lol. so i just fell asleep on my bed ):

i told my mum i'm gonna try to exercise every single day of the chinese new year period. they say it on the tv that we should too! haha.

anyway dinner was hmm as normal. same dishes as every year, grandma's specialties. however this year i got super pissed by my grandfather, and i shan't say why. cos actually now i'm not really angry about it already, so thank god. lol.

OH. and i've got my first 2 angpaos already. YAYAY.

okay i'm off now. have fun during your holiday gaypartner!

and to everyone.

GONGXIFACAIWANSHIRUYIMONEYMONEY! enjoy your new year (:

first, put your hands together and go, "the beacon of light and truth". then you go, TWISHTWISHTWISH. hahaha. omg so dumb. kenny's lovely expression.

choir bbq was quite fun in all. the food was good, games too. needless to say the excessive dunking and the soccer! hahah. seriously ecp is a cursed place for me, cos i split my pants again! my nice board shorts. haha. bet you all didn't know that, cos i concealed so well. hehehe.

okay its not really something to be proud oh well.

then stayed over at sx's house with kenny and zha. had quite alot of fun talking and laughing, as usual. WE NEED MORE NIGHTS LIKE THIS.

okay shan't blog too much. i'm in the midst of cleaning my room but i got too lazy so i'm slacking my ass off now. hahah. REUNION DINNERRRRR ARGHH FATTT.

and vegeterian bahkua sucks. hahah. SORRY SX (:

later ppl!

some people just can't stop using the word thunderous to describe me. haha. shan't tell you guys why. GO FIGURE!

today was totally SIANED out. as in referring to lessons. everything was either econs or physics, totally stoned to death. slept during econs, stoned during tutorials and physics lecture as well. its like as good as ponning school can. haha. and then after school there was musicfest auditions! me and sindhu did quite well, but may not get in, due to some complications. shan't talk about it. tough competition man! melodie and ween, pro people. hahah. shall let god decide.

went to pp to buy gifts for angel and mortal! omg i so nice can. spend so much money on the gifts. i really damn pokkai already after this week, i think i spent at least a hundred bucks!! freakin hell. haha. and my wallet is empty now. like totally. thats partly why i'm forced to go lunch with my parents tmr! haha.

yay so exciting i ponning school tmr. first time in my entire life. i'm such a guaikia don't you agree.

okay dunno what to blog already. i'm TIRED rawr.

cya peeps.

i was listening to songs from my mp3 on the way back just now, after walking sindhu home. and its like, being lost in this world of your own. then you get this kind of hmm bittersweet feeling, although the lyrics makes you a lil sad and emo, you don't feel like coming back to the real world which you belong to. hard to understand? haha. nevermind then.

had dinner at thaipan with sindhu, kenny, jialing, rayrin, huping, may just now. before we entered into the restaurant i managed to look up into the sky, and there was only 1 single star shining above, in the huge sky. its like a lonely being, lost in a world of sadness. but then after dinner when all of us looked up, the sky was filled with an uncountable amount of stars! haha. and jialing was like wow and they just stoned at the sky for awhile. suddenly the lonely being realises that there are indeed many friends in this world which he can count on.

well. just a funny analogy of mine. i think god blessed valentines with a star-filled sky today! great.

thank you thank you thank you for all the cookies, the chocolates, sweets, messages, items, the pig etcetcetc. really makes a difference, to know that you're loved by so many friends. haha. now an entire section of my fridge is stocked with all the goodies, and i've got cookies all over my table. lol. i'm never gonna be able to finish all of them.

anyway, 2 messages got me thinking. both told me not to change the way i am now. haha. then i started to ponder, am i still gonna be this crappy and retarded and sick and whatever in a few years time? i'm sure the deeper side of me will always be there. lol. wonder if i'll keep the funny side. HOPEFULLY i will. i don't want myself to change. nope.

aye musicfest duet tmr. hope i don't let sindhu down! ): you're a great singer bhaarrati. haha.

I Will Fly - Ten2five

You know all the things I’ve said
You know all the things that we have done
And things I gave to you
there’s no chance for me to say
How precious you are in my life
And you know that is true

To be with you is all that I need
‘cause with you my life seems brighter
and these are all the things I wanna say, hey

I will fly into your arms
And be with you to the end of time
Why are you so far away
You know it’s very hard for me to get my self close to you

You’re the reason why I stay
You’re the one who can not believe
Our love will never end
Is it only in my dream ?
You’re the one who can not see this

How could you be so blind
To be with you is all that I need
‘cause with you my life seems brighter
And these are all the things I wanna say, hey

I will fly into your arms
And be with you to the end of time
Why are you so far away
You know it’s very hard for me to get my self close to you.
why are you making me cling on?

ok seriously i should stop being distracted from my work when CTs are coming so soon! rawr. but today i totally lost focus in everything cos there was only one thing on my mind, MUSICFEST AUDITIONS.

glad i did well (i hope i did) and hopefully i'll get into the semis! haha guess i was emo-ing on stage, like all you people could see. emoboy in the making? sx says i already am one. lol. ah well, at least i can breathe a huge sigh of relief now! wasn't really nervous on stage, though i ALMOST forgot my lines at one point in time, due to some unforeseen reason. gosh.

after that went giant shopping with sx and nova! bought chocolates for S64 for valentines! THEY ARE EXPENSIVE OKAY. hahahah. erhem. yea then headed for dinner and then walked around a little bit more. sx and i were chatting alot, sorry nova! haha.

and then later on i headed to conference hall with zeyi and darryl, to watch cathigh band in action! they were having their syf practice so i decided to go watch (although stupid yizha pangsehed). haha dunno what to say bout the band though, except erm, quite terrible ): but nevermind its okay! still got 2 months before syf. can chiong. GO BAND!

aye the golden generation. passed. lol. but i remember cathigh band tradition is always, sound like shit at first, but last min chiong till gold with honours. BAD HABIT.

followed them back to cat high to listen to mrheng's long speech and all, plus enhao's pep talk. some things never change really, kelvin mark and jiawei should know what i'm talking about. stuff like.

"you don't come for your tutorial. you go and pay the tutor yourself ah!"

man i pity eric. go scolded until damn cham, sorta reminded me bout myself last time too, although i didn't tio as bad. haha. oh well, these things just make you stronger.

rawr its 12.23. just came home 45 mins ago. tiredtired. anyway,

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! people.

a time to celebrate friendship and love (: enjoyyourselves. ciao!

today i forgot to bring my wallet and keys, and i realised how handicapped one can be without having these things. thanks to all the people who lent me money and no thanks to the bus uncle who forced me to pay 90 cents for a bus ride of 2 stops. rawr.

bus ride home with danny yuting and zha just now. wasn't feeling emo or anything, just didn't feel like talking, although they were like having this intellectual talk about blahblah and all.

can't deny that sometimes i feel really sad about it. but then its been so long, sometimes i just feel totally numb about it too.

i'm feeling tired again. like yuting said, its unfair to everyone. but someone has to be spat out of the deep sea. i'd rather the sea spit me out right now, otherwise maybe i'll just keep falling in, deeper and deeper..spit me out, so maybe i'll see the sky and breathe in the air above.

man, i don't know what to do. its been totally, a never ending swim.

wonder whats gonna strike me. come wednesday.

argh session. stress.

my 160th post! a new blogging milestone for me. haha.

okay today was seriously damn draining, like all fridays. yesterday couldn't plan session cos i had hw from EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT. even GP la! had to do a freakin hard compre. now i'm stressed over session.

anyway today was still fun cos it was george's birthday! george is a lucky dude man! haha. while he was announcing stuff during assembly the councillors shouted his name, and then someone gave him a barbie balloon that he had to tie around his wrist for the entire day. (which he did) plus he got whacked in the balls by this guy and he collapsed onto the ground. and when some chinese teachers came to show their concern i merely told them, "mei you shi mei you shi, ta the qiu bei da." and what a wrong statement that was i realised after that, cos everyone just burst out into laughter. haha.

of course the main highlight of the day was after the last lesson. first we gave him a major taupok, which shook the entire container block till lim i reen from below came up to take a look. lol. then we blindfolded him and made him walk in circles around the area before settling him down on the grass and pouring him with buckets of water, plus hosing him as well. lol. oh and xiuquan got taupoked twice as well. taupoking is damn fun. hahaha.

okay i dunno what else to say, except HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEORGE!! god bless you always.

tired tired. and i dunno what i'm gonna sing for musicfest again, thanks to the constructive comments of sindhu and zha.

"I'll Be" Goo Goo Dolls

The strands in your eyes
That color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains
Thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows
Of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

emotional song. love it.

ok i'm feeling rather tired now, but just felt like blogging. lol.

this morning was so scary can. was supposed to be at aunty ginger's car by 6.30 and i woke up at 6.25. but me being the calm me didn't panic and quickly went to brush my teeth and change, dumped stuff into my bag and rushed off. and when i reached there it was just on time! phew. haha. my alarm did ring, but i couldn't even hear it. wth. shows how pig i've become.

school school school, nothing significant to mention about. except the stupid PE lesson and the econs lecture, which was supposed to end early, but ended up having to listen to some group present their econs project, which i obviously didn't do. haha. and obviously all of us didn't listen, so we started CAMWHORING omg. here some pictures.


me and xiuquan, insulting each other, as usual. lol.

ting me and xq. my hair's messy. hehe.

this was supposed to be a nice pic. before SOMEONE decided to stick in his finger.

we should camwhore more often next time. so fun. hehe.

time to sleep soon! otherwise tmr morning is gonna be horrific again.

wishing i could be in a dream,

which isn't really fulfilling.

wakeup, wakeup.

i love strumming the accoustic and singing to it. its like a whole different feeling, compared to the classical. lol. i think i know what i'm gonna sing for musicfest already! top secret! heheh. no lah. ask me and you'll find out.

choir today was super tiring, as usual. couldn't really sing properly as well, due to the throatiness i was suffering from. not fully recovered YET. by the time i reached home it was already 9 plus, and i had lonelydinner again, in front of the telly.

feels kinda sad that i always come home and then find myself not having like a brotherorsister to at least make some noise at me. see, i'm going through onlychildemo-ing again. haha. maybe its cos i wish i had someone dear i could hug right now.

freak la. emoemoemo. just like what ricer tagged. haha.

after my bath i almost fell asleep on my bed! but managed to drag myself up in the end to do a substantial amount of RX tutorial. not feeling very accomplished though. lol. and then i couldn't resist the temptation of the fizzyfish i bought from M&S lying on my table. so i decided to open and pop one in. but till now i think i've popped at least 7. haha shit.

late night eating sucks. makes you feel GUILTYY. pigpig.

hmm these days i'm trying to tell myself to stay away, to keep a distance. maybe to just let go. but then somehow at the end of it all i still don't manage to do it. i wonder if its even doing any good for me, staying this way.

i guess i'll just have to hug my noseless dog to sleep.

to yoga tmr and my bed now, here i come!

seeyou people (:

yay blogger is finally back! i thought my blog was like gone for good ): haha then got quite emo about it. like oh no what happens to all my emo posts! lol. but didn't realise it was happening to everyone else's blogs too. okay himboism. bad.

anyway today is another of those totally-drain-you-out kinda days. lessons in school was totally a turn off, esp when we had to withstand 5 straight periods of lessons, which included 3 periods of compre test, 1 period of maths lecture and 1 maths tutorial. almost dieded. then after 1 period break we had chem tutorial, WHICH had a chem test. freakin hell la.

but thank goodness the day ended and some of us happily went to play basketball. haha friday is becoming basketball day for S64. was quite satisfied with the workout i got, my basketball is improving they say! lol. yup so after bball we went to eeloong's house for a short mahjong session before heading for jts. omg EELOONG'S MAHJONG TABLE was totally a COCKROACH NEST LA. i think he didn't take out his table from the back store for years man. all the chip drawers were filled with LIZARD AND COCKROACH SHIT and 2 DRAWERS HAD COCKROACHES INSIDE!! in the end eeloong and his maid turned saviours and exterminated to shit and cockroaches, although one cockroach managed to fly away. CHAO ZAI. hahaha. its was friggin scary. hahah i'm scared of cockroaches. digusting creatures ):

yup so JTS. totally rocked man i must say. we have such a great junior class filled with nice and funny and wacky and bitchy people. haha. PLUS almost all of them turned up, with only the exception of 3 people. we totally shook up the swensons at airport with our chaotic noise and movement. lol. there was massive talking about scandals within our classes as well as within the school, alot of random crapping, games, blah so many things. and junior class has this guy who carries a knife wherever he goes, plus a sharpener to go with it. LOL. so the last time i gave my angel a watermelon, he cut up the watermelon for the entire class to eat. and today my angel GAVE ME A WATERMELON. hahah. and he cut it up for us to eat again, till we were stopped by the swenson's people who kindly reminded us no outside food allowed. haha.

then after that we all went to the viewing gallery to hang out. talked a lil more, played the hand slapping game, did mass dance, took pictures. it was great (: thank you 06s64 people for trying to taopok me and ended up messing my hair which i had to bear with all the way home. hahaha.

praise god for today!

hmm. today when i entered the airport i got this bittersweet feeling. i guess it happens everytime. its like i just feel like boarding a plane and leaving to another country where there will be no worries, great scenery, fun and love.

sense of nostalgia.

and the moments from italy came back again. sigh. miss those times.

will it ever be the same again?