weekends weekends. what a lovable weekend this was.

shan't talk much bout sat. spend almost the entire day in school, first for the uni talk in the morning (which i fell asleep in, sadly), then choir for the rest of the day. draining! but went for some chit chat at night with wanting, jerrold and sx. enjoyed it. hahah. and of course, sat came to a happy close with man u thrashing bolton 4-0! :D

today was all about eating and laughing and having fun. morning's session was kinda chim, but still enjoyed it all the same. went for lunch at macs, somewhere i hadn't gone to for a long time. finished 2 packets of curry sauce and 4 mayo packets, and half of poey's bbq sauce, which was totally sinful. enjoyed it all the same.

haha after that went to video ezy to look at videos, couldn't convince mark to watch ju-on cos he's too scared, so we ended up standing there looking at the movies on the screen, think they were showing take the lead. haha we found it nice so rented it and went over to kris's house to watch!

i watched for awhile and then left to dawn's house! of course before i detoured to ntuc to buy ice cream. dawn's house is so ulu and far, they need to develop that area more. haha. anyway had alot of fun there, eating cookies, apple crumble, taiwan sausages, beehoon, curry, playing mahjong, cards, POLAR BEAR and of course all the picture taking and talking. oh yea not forgetting the funny video we did for yuting, bringing out the sexual and casual tendencies of the choir people. hahah. had fun though.

alright this is such a random and pointless entry i don't even know why i'm typing this. but guess i feel obliged to blog. i'm like going on and on about what i did, and i don't like to blog like this.

somehow this feels, bittersweet. guess i was bothered at some points.

i thought it was over. but now i'm not so sure..

i want God back in my life.
i want to go back to where i was.
i want to be fulfilled.

save me..

dang i'm such an inconsistent blogger. i should learn how to speak more about my life. haha.

anyway i have to take maths H2 R paper on the 3rd of Jan. how suck is that, considering i have so much going on during the holidays and that i'm totally not in the mood to STUDY. and worst of all i missed the passing grade by 1 mark. -.- how sad can i get.

had a first ogl meeting today! guess theres gonna be lots of hiong preparation and all, wonder how i'm going to juggle choir and ogl at the same time. entire of LT was filled, making me realise that i'm just one of the many people. haha its not really a privilege being an ogl, or is it? worst of all is that almost everyone who applied got in, so my crazy interview came for nothing. oh well guess its part and parcel of everything.

i'm wondering, HOW COME SOME PEOPL ARE NOT OGLS TOO. people like ngiamster, and vweg, and blahblahblah, so manymany.

and vweg, STOP CALLING ME MR GAY. its not nice. haha. you're sending a WRONG message to everyone. get it? WRONG message.

went for hwachong's scream just now! most of the time was spent watching horror shows on big screen, namely shutter and ju-on. other than that i was kinda people watching. gosh hc people are seriously one of a kind, i still prefer vj surroundings. haha. went for this haunted maze which was totally unscary, okay maybe it was okay but i didn't get as shaken up as our dear mark. dunno what happened to the fatal frame games and the haunted trail, sigh! so wanted to go.

dunno why i'm feeling all itchy now although i just bathed. i have sensitive skin. reminds me, my skin can change colour with a touch.

its true! (:

YES FINALLY we're done with the choreo for the entire musical. i really really hope its gonna be good. haha. finally taught like scene 1 to scene 5 today too. you guys need to be more drama and less robotic! but hope everyone's enjoying doing the choreo. great job.

anyway i watched death note yesterday.

OMG BEST MOVIE IN THE WORLD. ALL OF YOU SHOULD GO AND WATCH OMGOMG ITS LIKE, TOTALLY ROX LA. please don't miss this wonderful chance in a lifetime, there hasn't been a GOOD movie for a really long time. :D:D:D

like totally. go watch it man. hahahaha.

I NEED TO EXERCISE.

PW SUX.

i want to play soccer. soon. haha. and i'm addicted to dota.

ok this is so random.

i'm off!

haven't blogged in a long time. oh well guess its time.

today was such a waste of time. i went to school at 7, slept at the gym alley till 8. and then after that decided to pon the rest of the entire day's lessons. so in the end i only attended chem tutorial. wasn't alone! thats the best thing. haha. today is the first day i've ponned a lecture, and i've ponned so many in one shot. remarkable. lol.

anyway post promos are seriously shit. its not about the boring lessons and having nothing to do. its the impact of results. not on myself, but on the people around me. in class, in choir i've got friends getting results that don't allow you to get promoted. some want to leave, some are lost, some don't know what to do. at times like these i wish i could help my friends, but i can't ): i don't want any single of them to leave, neither do i want them to get retained. seeing people cry over their results seriously wrenches my heart but i really don't know what to say to make them feel better.

i feel freaking useless.

my results aren't too bad when i think about other people around me. i can consider myself to be lucky. i seriously can't stand it when people who pass everything and get like Ds or Cs or even As complain about results and go about whining and all, suaning other people. i mean please be more sensitive in what you say, cos actually there are many others around you who WANT your results, yet you want better.

its a selfish thought. but please be sensitive. i can't stand insensitive bitches.

i wish praying could help my friends. i know praying to God would help. but the worst thing is that now i'm not even in the right spiritual mindset to pray for people. i'm dead spiritually and i feel as if i'm alone in this world. even when i'm typing this entry now (and talking to jes at the same time), i feel so freakin lonely, so lost, so tired. what have i done with my life suddenly? what happened to the warmth and the joy? i have no one to talk to. i don't want to ignore God, but i feel unworthy.

unworthiness. does it even end?

its gonna be a long journey this holidays. don't even talk about holidays, haven't even done my OP presentation when its like due next wed. so many things, so little time. i don't even think i will have time for God, for church these holidays. i'm gonna miss all of you churchies. choir, ogl (thats if i make it), seriously i'll barely have space to breathe.

to all my friends out there feeling dejected with results, whatever.

sorry if i haven't done enough to make you feel better.

but look on the positive side.

cos i don't wanna lose you guys.

God please protect them.

i wish i knew how come things are feeling this way right now. i can't help but wonder what is being said sometimes and all, and only if things could go back the way it were. too bad it can't!

Dear God,

I know you're always there, no matter what i do, no matter what i say. Lord, i just want to say that i'm sorry for all the times that i've ignored you, when i sin, when i am having fun, when i am tired. I wonder how you can take care of so many people at one time and sometimes i do feel like i'm not worthy in your sight, but Lord, i know that you are watching me. You are watching me, and just hoping that i'll put everything behind, start afresh and go back to you. But Lord, its just so hard sometimes, especially when i keep falling to temptation, listening to my own excuses and succumbing to the weariness that the devil's put it me.

All i want to say now, Lord, is just that i haven't forgotten the times when you have empowered me with you love, the times when you just rescued me from the bottom and comforted me. I haven't forgotten about all the gifts, the talents, the love you have showered upon me, my friends, my family.

So Lord, you know that one of my greatest desires is to come back to you, and this is all i ask for in this letter. Help me Lord to come back to you, to just be in you presence, just to love you more and more each day. Nothing in this world is greater than your love Lord...Nothing...

Thank You, God.

Love, Your Son.

promos are over. yay? haha i don't even feel yay-ish at all. suddenly i feel so bloody bored. PLUS promos had to end with maths which i totally screwed. haha i bet everyone's gonna do well, yongsheng even went like, "wah this paper let you score full marks one." after the paper. my classmates are all smartasses, haha i need to buck up in my maths.

oh well whats done is done. i just hope i don't end up getting retained. (i think i won't, though there's always this part of me saying that i will. )

anyway more ranting, today was super boring. i woke up at 11 and started rolling around in my bed, trying to sleep more. but alas i couldn't. so i woke up and watched tv. and when the programs started becoming uninteresting, i came online. and i realised online there was no one, then i tried to play dota. then when i realise dota is really not my thang anymore, I STARTED CLEANING UP MY ROOM. now my room is super neat and tidy, just the way i like it. haha. GOD SAVE ME i have no school till next friday if i'm gonna have more days like this i'm so gonna die. haha.

ok sorry bout that. actually, i don't think i'll be free, now that promos are over, choir is gonna START again. oh yes i miss the singing, but i'm not looking forward to planning the choreo, the props, singing carols over and over again, trying my best to act mr. turnadier etc etc etc. YEAR END MUSICAL, MALACCA, SYF, CAROLLING all the way up to christmas day itself ): this is gonna be a hell busy time for vjc choir people. brace yourselves! haha.

i wanna be an ogl ): i wanna do stupid cheers and mass dance ): i wanna meet more people ):

so many things i wanna do and yet i cannot.

HOW!

i wonder.

2 papers over in a flash! how fantastic. shan't comment on them. haha. but anyway here i am slacking once again cos tmr i have no paper. i'm utterly brain-dead and tired. pondering whether i should study. hmm THE GUILT will kill me.

anyway VON i'll do the quiz after promos. haha it looks uber long, too long for me to do now ;p

good luck for those still having promos!

and..

i don't like jasmine tye. she was just attractive for one hour, or even less. haha.

i have no favourite singer, except myself (:

weekends weekends. what a lovable weekend this was.

shan't talk much bout sat. spend almost the entire day in school, first for the uni talk in the morning (which i fell asleep in, sadly), then choir for the rest of the day. draining! but went for some chit chat at night with wanting, jerrold and sx. enjoyed it. hahah. and of course, sat came to a happy close with man u thrashing bolton 4-0! :D

today was all about eating and laughing and having fun. morning's session was kinda chim, but still enjoyed it all the same. went for lunch at macs, somewhere i hadn't gone to for a long time. finished 2 packets of curry sauce and 4 mayo packets, and half of poey's bbq sauce, which was totally sinful. enjoyed it all the same.

haha after that went to video ezy to look at videos, couldn't convince mark to watch ju-on cos he's too scared, so we ended up standing there looking at the movies on the screen, think they were showing take the lead. haha we found it nice so rented it and went over to kris's house to watch!

i watched for awhile and then left to dawn's house! of course before i detoured to ntuc to buy ice cream. dawn's house is so ulu and far, they need to develop that area more. haha. anyway had alot of fun there, eating cookies, apple crumble, taiwan sausages, beehoon, curry, playing mahjong, cards, POLAR BEAR and of course all the picture taking and talking. oh yea not forgetting the funny video we did for yuting, bringing out the sexual and casual tendencies of the choir people. hahah. had fun though.

alright this is such a random and pointless entry i don't even know why i'm typing this. but guess i feel obliged to blog. i'm like going on and on about what i did, and i don't like to blog like this.

somehow this feels, bittersweet. guess i was bothered at some points.

i thought it was over. but now i'm not so sure..

i want God back in my life.
i want to go back to where i was.
i want to be fulfilled.

save me..

dang i'm such an inconsistent blogger. i should learn how to speak more about my life. haha.

anyway i have to take maths H2 R paper on the 3rd of Jan. how suck is that, considering i have so much going on during the holidays and that i'm totally not in the mood to STUDY. and worst of all i missed the passing grade by 1 mark. -.- how sad can i get.

had a first ogl meeting today! guess theres gonna be lots of hiong preparation and all, wonder how i'm going to juggle choir and ogl at the same time. entire of LT was filled, making me realise that i'm just one of the many people. haha its not really a privilege being an ogl, or is it? worst of all is that almost everyone who applied got in, so my crazy interview came for nothing. oh well guess its part and parcel of everything.

i'm wondering, HOW COME SOME PEOPL ARE NOT OGLS TOO. people like ngiamster, and vweg, and blahblahblah, so manymany.

and vweg, STOP CALLING ME MR GAY. its not nice. haha. you're sending a WRONG message to everyone. get it? WRONG message.

went for hwachong's scream just now! most of the time was spent watching horror shows on big screen, namely shutter and ju-on. other than that i was kinda people watching. gosh hc people are seriously one of a kind, i still prefer vj surroundings. haha. went for this haunted maze which was totally unscary, okay maybe it was okay but i didn't get as shaken up as our dear mark. dunno what happened to the fatal frame games and the haunted trail, sigh! so wanted to go.

dunno why i'm feeling all itchy now although i just bathed. i have sensitive skin. reminds me, my skin can change colour with a touch.

its true! (:

YES FINALLY we're done with the choreo for the entire musical. i really really hope its gonna be good. haha. finally taught like scene 1 to scene 5 today too. you guys need to be more drama and less robotic! but hope everyone's enjoying doing the choreo. great job.

anyway i watched death note yesterday.

OMG BEST MOVIE IN THE WORLD. ALL OF YOU SHOULD GO AND WATCH OMGOMG ITS LIKE, TOTALLY ROX LA. please don't miss this wonderful chance in a lifetime, there hasn't been a GOOD movie for a really long time. :D:D:D

like totally. go watch it man. hahahaha.

I NEED TO EXERCISE.

PW SUX.

i want to play soccer. soon. haha. and i'm addicted to dota.

ok this is so random.

i'm off!

haven't blogged in a long time. oh well guess its time.

today was such a waste of time. i went to school at 7, slept at the gym alley till 8. and then after that decided to pon the rest of the entire day's lessons. so in the end i only attended chem tutorial. wasn't alone! thats the best thing. haha. today is the first day i've ponned a lecture, and i've ponned so many in one shot. remarkable. lol.

anyway post promos are seriously shit. its not about the boring lessons and having nothing to do. its the impact of results. not on myself, but on the people around me. in class, in choir i've got friends getting results that don't allow you to get promoted. some want to leave, some are lost, some don't know what to do. at times like these i wish i could help my friends, but i can't ): i don't want any single of them to leave, neither do i want them to get retained. seeing people cry over their results seriously wrenches my heart but i really don't know what to say to make them feel better.

i feel freaking useless.

my results aren't too bad when i think about other people around me. i can consider myself to be lucky. i seriously can't stand it when people who pass everything and get like Ds or Cs or even As complain about results and go about whining and all, suaning other people. i mean please be more sensitive in what you say, cos actually there are many others around you who WANT your results, yet you want better.

its a selfish thought. but please be sensitive. i can't stand insensitive bitches.

i wish praying could help my friends. i know praying to God would help. but the worst thing is that now i'm not even in the right spiritual mindset to pray for people. i'm dead spiritually and i feel as if i'm alone in this world. even when i'm typing this entry now (and talking to jes at the same time), i feel so freakin lonely, so lost, so tired. what have i done with my life suddenly? what happened to the warmth and the joy? i have no one to talk to. i don't want to ignore God, but i feel unworthy.

unworthiness. does it even end?

its gonna be a long journey this holidays. don't even talk about holidays, haven't even done my OP presentation when its like due next wed. so many things, so little time. i don't even think i will have time for God, for church these holidays. i'm gonna miss all of you churchies. choir, ogl (thats if i make it), seriously i'll barely have space to breathe.

to all my friends out there feeling dejected with results, whatever.

sorry if i haven't done enough to make you feel better.

but look on the positive side.

cos i don't wanna lose you guys.

God please protect them.

i wish i knew how come things are feeling this way right now. i can't help but wonder what is being said sometimes and all, and only if things could go back the way it were. too bad it can't!

Dear God,

I know you're always there, no matter what i do, no matter what i say. Lord, i just want to say that i'm sorry for all the times that i've ignored you, when i sin, when i am having fun, when i am tired. I wonder how you can take care of so many people at one time and sometimes i do feel like i'm not worthy in your sight, but Lord, i know that you are watching me. You are watching me, and just hoping that i'll put everything behind, start afresh and go back to you. But Lord, its just so hard sometimes, especially when i keep falling to temptation, listening to my own excuses and succumbing to the weariness that the devil's put it me.

All i want to say now, Lord, is just that i haven't forgotten the times when you have empowered me with you love, the times when you just rescued me from the bottom and comforted me. I haven't forgotten about all the gifts, the talents, the love you have showered upon me, my friends, my family.

So Lord, you know that one of my greatest desires is to come back to you, and this is all i ask for in this letter. Help me Lord to come back to you, to just be in you presence, just to love you more and more each day. Nothing in this world is greater than your love Lord...Nothing...

Thank You, God.

Love, Your Son.

promos are over. yay? haha i don't even feel yay-ish at all. suddenly i feel so bloody bored. PLUS promos had to end with maths which i totally screwed. haha i bet everyone's gonna do well, yongsheng even went like, "wah this paper let you score full marks one." after the paper. my classmates are all smartasses, haha i need to buck up in my maths.

oh well whats done is done. i just hope i don't end up getting retained. (i think i won't, though there's always this part of me saying that i will. )

anyway more ranting, today was super boring. i woke up at 11 and started rolling around in my bed, trying to sleep more. but alas i couldn't. so i woke up and watched tv. and when the programs started becoming uninteresting, i came online. and i realised online there was no one, then i tried to play dota. then when i realise dota is really not my thang anymore, I STARTED CLEANING UP MY ROOM. now my room is super neat and tidy, just the way i like it. haha. GOD SAVE ME i have no school till next friday if i'm gonna have more days like this i'm so gonna die. haha.

ok sorry bout that. actually, i don't think i'll be free, now that promos are over, choir is gonna START again. oh yes i miss the singing, but i'm not looking forward to planning the choreo, the props, singing carols over and over again, trying my best to act mr. turnadier etc etc etc. YEAR END MUSICAL, MALACCA, SYF, CAROLLING all the way up to christmas day itself ): this is gonna be a hell busy time for vjc choir people. brace yourselves! haha.

i wanna be an ogl ): i wanna do stupid cheers and mass dance ): i wanna meet more people ):

so many things i wanna do and yet i cannot.

HOW!

i wonder.

2 papers over in a flash! how fantastic. shan't comment on them. haha. but anyway here i am slacking once again cos tmr i have no paper. i'm utterly brain-dead and tired. pondering whether i should study. hmm THE GUILT will kill me.

anyway VON i'll do the quiz after promos. haha it looks uber long, too long for me to do now ;p

good luck for those still having promos!

and..

i don't like jasmine tye. she was just attractive for one hour, or even less. haha.

i have no favourite singer, except myself (: