okay i have no idea what is happening. but my blogger page is in THAI. so i'm navigating through the thai links. but due to my linguistic brilliance here i am at the posting page! haha right.

i just watched one of the sickest and twisted movies ever, saw 3. with my MOM. gosh it was so freakin gory my mother couldn't stop saying ohmygod ohmygod and she tried to cover my eyes at some times on top of her squealing and screaming. lol. and guess what. i couldn't stop laughing! as in i was digusted as well. but it was just damn funny somehow. maybe i was amused by my mother. haha. shit man imagine if i had watched it myself. i bet i wouldn't be laughing lol.

YUCK. pity those people who created the movie. sick and twisted minds.

alright shan't blog much since its so late argh shall head to bed. today was a fun and productive day yay! haha. goodnight to myself then.

i guess its always times like this when i feel like blogging. when i'm all alone facing my com, with no one to talk to, but just many thoughts wandering around in my head.

went for drama night just now with krissay. haha guess it was quite alright, except for the fact that i fell asleep halfway through the faces play, probably because i was feeling too tired. but everyone said it was damn good! so yeah kudos to drama people. plus daniel debbie and hongsheng the tree of course. good job!

after sending krissay home i took the long walk back to my house, with my walkman plugged in. had no idea why i decided to take a walk too, maybe because i just wanted some time alone with my music. haha. couldn't think about anything much, since my eyes were already blurring and all.

today isn't really a very thinky day i wonder why, i tend to think alot during times like these. haha. oh well.

okay this is such an unfruitful update. but i'm just glad i have my blog here to keeep me company at this time. yay.

out.

damn pissed. for the 2nd time in 2 days. with the SAME PERSON. argh. i seriously don't know whats her problem. i never even do anything to you and you keep saying stuff to provoke me. and what do you mean by you can say things to me but i can't respond and defend myself?! and whats with the body language shit, can't you tell i'm tired!? RAH. i feel like punching my wall.

anyway choir today from 3 to 8 plus. coupled with shiong pe this morning, i think i'm about to die right now. plus the thunderstorm totally drenched my shoes and my lower body. rah what a day.

SYF is in what, less than 2 weeks? and our songs are still so pitchy and all. shucks i don't know how! and we can't stop rushing. its so freaking frustrating.

gold with honours. its still a dream, lets please work hard and make it a reality.

we cannot fail. cannot.

YES shit i was telling ween. i seem to have acquired a taste for EXPENSIVE ICE CREAM. omg it totally sucks up your money and i swear i'm not gonna eat anymore for a long time. (i'll try.) first it was scoopz 2 days in a row, then later in the evening a bought a bnj's cone which cost 4.50! (OMFG LA.) yes and i bought it without knowing the price -.- but it was damn nice anyway. haha.

okay quite alot of people made it through the 2nd syf auditions which is good! sorry to those who couldn't ): continue to work harder we still have pattaya! oh well i really do hope we get top choir. but first we have to worry about getting GWH FIRST! it seems like from last year till now we haven't had a SINGLE satisfying performance. we seem to screw up everytime. SHITXZ lah. we better pray that doesn't happen for syf! WE CAN DO IT.

oh yea and congratulations to strings for getting GWH! lets hope all the performing arts groups get goldorgwh, then maybe we can chant for some whateverday. since pohmeng is still ignorant to the biasness of vjc towards towards sports. haha. anyway here are some random pictures!

fashioning for the new victorian tees!

mrpoh, me, sx, ween at roxy square!

anyway session today was really good i guess. i haven't felt so "spiritually fed" in such a long time. and i think in log every single one of us are so empowered by God! lets struggle through this time together.

i just want to be where you are,
dwelling daily in your presence.
i don't want to worship from afar,
draw me near to where you are.

i want to be where you are,
dwelling in your presence.
feasting at your table,
surrounded by your glory.
in your presence,
that's where i always long to be.
i just want to be,
i just want to be, with you.

haha.

why get so worried or scared over something when there is nothing you can do about it? thats what everyone says and thats what i keep telling myself. but how come it doesn't help. sigh.

i just want it to be over i guess, over and done with.

i'm off for a run!

shit i can't stand it there's a blood clot on my finger! and now its a freakin irritating lump which hinders my movement of the mouse and my typing. haha. got it at pastamania just now THANKS to the spoilt chair, which just giap-ed my flesh. eek painful right? haha.

well i waved it away, LIKE A MAN. lol.

today we had a half day! all thanks to the wushu and crossers for winning winning. gah even if choir wins the grandprix of choral singing i bet we won't even get a quarter day off. lol. yup so headed to VCH right after physics lecture with some choir peeps to watch choir syf for almost the rest of the day! enoch sx thong may and i were predicting what each choir were gonna get and it was quite fun. i predicted a total of 3 COPs and in the end only 1 choir got COP. haha. and poor fairfield didn't get GOH! although sx and enoch were quite adamant they were damn damn good. i couldn't say anything though, i need more CHORAL experience before i can speak out. lol.

okay i think i better get back to what i'm supposed to do.

I NEED SLEEP.

hello there i haven't blogged since god knows when thats why i'm FORCING myself to keep my blog alive by posting now, although its already way past bedtime ): i hate it when i have so little hours of sleep. i'll just conk out during the day argh. and now i'm tempted to change from blogger to something else all thanks to mrpoh! indeed i think blogger is for NOOBS. haha. the world needs more sophistication.

i think i'm quite scared for SYF after today. sigh i think alot of us are working very hard already but somehow the quality is just not there. it sucks when hard work doesn't pay off eh? but its bad to see CERTAIN people still not pushing themselves when their place in the choir is actually at stake. what are you guys thinking huh?! gah. we need to uphold vjchoir's name please. do you understand the true meaning of vjchoir? do you?

somehow i no longer feel the zainess anymore. Big Sigh.

oh well what to do. every batch needs rebuilding time and i guess ours is just taking longer. (i hope) anyway choir prac totally drained me mentally and physically. and then i was feeling so hungry at the same time, which made me really look forward to going home for dinner. and then when i reached home and i saw what was for dinner, i totally got pissed off. ARGH. totally pissed off, but i didn't show it to my dad who cooked the food because you can count the number of dads who actually cook every day.

bittergourdsoup, friedfish (which was totally stiff and tough). just finished everything in the end and i was just glad i wasn't feeling hungry anymore.

forgot to say! guess i wasn't pissed for long. haha. sigh wonder how i can get angry at a thing like this. maybe its because like i said, drained. PHYSICALLY and MENTALLY. thats why my emotions and thinking gets screwed.

oh well then after that i just couldn't be bothered to do any work cos i was just too stoned. so i just stayed online and watched ami which totally rocked. i shall try to catch up with my work tmr! motivation motivation.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESLYNNNNNNNNN!!
EVERYONE ITS JESLYNN'S BIRTHDAY! (:

plus

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONGSHENG!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAQING!!

hope you enjoyed your days (:

its past your birthdays but i don't care. you guys are 18 now go watch your first m18 movie! haha.

okay its LATEEE i'm off.
and why do such people exist in this world argh.

today we were talking in the room and then suddenly we started talking about dragging. seems like some common thing which happens to everyone. does it only occur in our age or what. sigh indeed dragging is a terrible terrible feeling.
almost a year. how long more?
and then on the bus they were talking about fishing again which i couldn't catch any head or tail off. haha. why so complicated when everything can be so simple? anyway i'm not really talking about fishingfishing. haha.

aye i feel horrible. i've got this absolutely shitty feeling going on inside me which is due to a few reasons. one of them being the endless list of tutorials and assignments and lecture notes i need to catch up on. its A level year but i feel like i'm slacking more than i was in sec 4. ARGH. i really need to start, but i dunno where to start from. sigh.

anyway to all who failed syf auditions. ITS NOT OVER BECAUSE NEXT WEEK ITS GOING TO BE DIFFERENT. tell yourself that. just practise hard and have confidence in your own abilities! if you deserve it, you WILL get it.

sigh, i hate sunday afternoons.

i realised i haven't blogged in a long time. lol.

anyway! MUSICFEST IS FINALLY OVER. lol and i didn't win but i'm still happy. think i really enjoyed myself and i really thank all of you for supporting me. hahah. thanks for the flowers, the hugs, the words of encouragement everything! oh and soo for the guitar which SHINED IN THE SPOTLIGHT WOO. it was indeed a night of fun, emotion and amazement. haha.

oh and i won a fifty dollar recording voucher which is totally useless. lol if you need it come look for me.

ah and today we got our pw results as well and my entire group got a B ): its quite depressing it really is but i guess i'm gonna get over it soon. so many people in VJ got A! then when you get a B you're like shit second tier. aye. nevermind work hard for A level! i hope. haha.

oh and i got my new phone. this is it!

sony ericsson w880i the sexy slim phone on tv. happy boy! this is gonna have to be my phone for the next 30 months. lol.

ok tired more next time ciao.

tagged by mrpoh. so i'm supposed to post like 6 weird/interesting facts about myself yes? here goes.

#1. I had been bald for 15 years of my life before i decided to leave hair to grow in august 2004.

#2. Ever since leaving my hair to grow i've had variations of hairstyles. from spiked, to centre parting, to side parting, to MOHAWK/CHICKENBACKSIDE, and to now whatever it is.

#3. I was cadet scout of the year when i was in p6. on top of that i was quartermaster and i was awarded the district commissioners award. no doubt, i was a pretigious (fat) scout in the past.

#4. I was very fat and round in the past and a tremendous amount of effort was put in to recreate myself into what i am today. haha. sounds inspirational? ask me for my old picture.

#5. I developed a phobia for veggies when i tried to showoff to my cousin that i could eat veggies when i was young, but ended up puking everything out. then the green puke just freaked me. now i'm starting to accept veggies again. yup, vegetarians as well. HAHA.

#6. I'm a singing machine. I sing everywhere. in the lift, corridor, living room, toilet. i think all my neighbours should have heard me by now. one kind neighbour responded with a loud "OI!" before. really appreciative neighbours i have.

YUP SO THATS 6. interesting facts about myself. hmm didn't take too long to think of them, suprisingly. haha. so the 6 lucky people who will have to do this quiz along with me will be

1. ricer
2. jeslynn
3. tim soo
4. krissay
5. jiaming
6. ethel

congratulations yay! lol. don't feel obliged to do it though. i know you are all very busy people haha.

aye i swear i'm gonna be more hardworking from tmr onwards. i think i've slacked enough so its time to work my socks off! shall try not to be distracted by my computer especially. hmm.

mass today was nice. glad i went for 6pm. although i felt quite sorang because only 3 people including me were occupying one entire row. good thing was that i could concentrate better for the first time in dunno how long, plus the choir is much better than the 9am one. haha. PLUS i got to see my dear ngiamster friend who said i was DAO when actually i gave her my sexysmile. HAHA.

aye chris daughtry's voice is so nice i want his voice. this song rocks. plus, its even nicer when you read the lyrics and really feel the song. guess the second verse speaks alot to me.

Chris Daughtry - Home

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

now i know what is one of the worst feelings of this world.

WAKING UP.

after a supersupersupersupersuper nice dream. )):

it was like sinking my head back into my pillow with sorrow after coming out of this "wonderland", back staring into the cold hard ceiling of my enclosed room. AH. the CRUELTY of REALITY. lol.

this is seriously not a good morning. i got overcome by LAZINESS and decided to go for 6pm mass. now i'm regretting it. plus i think of all the work i have left, i just wanna puke.

why couldn't i pause the dream ):

AIYA HOW. really leh.

so depressing can nelson said our performance today was bad beyond belief. this is the first time i've heard him (or seen him) say that in vjchoir. its scary cos he really sounded pissed PLUS he also said get ready for SYF auditions next sat cos he doesn't need more than 60 people on stage.

WORK HARD. my brothers and sisters. you have 1 entire week left.

and nowadays i don't really see the point in exercising because i just EATLIKETHERESNOTOMORROW. my exercise routines can hardly make up for the amount of NUTRITION that i'm consuming can. wah lau. maybe i should go on a diet. hahaha. haven't gone on one in a longlong time. maybe thats why. MAYBE I SHOULD.

aye shit man u is losing 1-0 at halftime so sad. and there's no one to talk to online BOOHOO. hahah.

its easter. christ has risen from the dead!

sigh i'm tired! i think i'm gonna sleep soon. record earliest cos its only like 10.40. haha. AND I HAVEN'T GONE FOR CONFESSION!

2nd year in a row never go confession before easter. everyone should just give me a slap.

anyway random picture of the day.

WATCHA LOOKING AT.

ween says i can't take properphotos. maybe its true. lol.

okay i ate 4 meals altogether today. 1 light and 3 heavy. but i seriously think that muddymudpie is the cause of the layeroffat that just appeared on my lowerabs. haha. PLEASE DISAPPEAR WHEN I WAKE UP TMR.

shit musicfest is scary i'm not confident that i can win. maybe because of my song choice! hopefully it'll be good enough. otherwise, God please show me a sign that i need to change my song. haha.

restringing an accoustic. NEW HEADACHE.

crankycrankyday. but not a very happy day for me as well. haha. exco nominees plus new musicco announced! congratulations to every one of you who got in! do your best for vj choir (:

now i sound like some vjchoir patriot. haha.

i'm feeling really tired from school, choir, running, emotions. and i feel like i need a longlongsleep to get me through. before i slept last night i looked at the clock at it was 12.32. then i said to myself, fuck less than 6 hours of sleep again. but then now i'm sitting here thinking that i can't afford to sleep because i've got my maclaurin's to complete otherwise mrhwk is gonna come and question me again. but on the other hand i'm totally not in the mood for anything now and i've got my musicfest thing to settle. ARGH irritating.

sorry for the angsty paragraph.

sigh sometimes i do some things which aren't really correct, then when i think back i'm like, why the hell did you do such or thing, or say such a thing. i guess i'm trying to be perfect, and i want to be accepted by everyone around me? aye the wrong steps that i take. i just hope i don't live to regret any of these actions, ever.

saw this quote on the channel 8 show just now.

the greatest tragedy in life is having someone right in front of you, but not getting to say i love you.

says something, treasure every single person in your life. out.

gosh i totally forgot today is april fool's day! not until stupid frederick sent a message to the basses saying tmr choir prac is cancelled because weather forecast says its gonna snow -.- haha. then after that i straightaway got into the aprilfoolsday mood and sent my aprilfools message to a few people. but nobody got tricked ): all i got back was a message from xiuquan saying:

haha nice one slut! _!_

oh well. typical vulgar shit. anyway to the rest, just too bad if you didn't receive it! haha.

okay yet again i spent my entire weekend doing nothing. i think i really need to change this stupid habit of mine. people are supposed to mug the hardest during the weekends. argh. i was going for dinner with my mum just now and she was like telling me all her financial plans and whatever for me then i'm like wow! you've got it all planned out. haha. i think i better start studying hard soon, for my parents as well as for myself. yay.

i sound like a filial boy all of a sudden don't I. haha.

hmm okay. i'm currently experiencing some lows now. shan't blog further! haha. ban emoshitxz! seeyou people (:

okay i have no idea what is happening. but my blogger page is in THAI. so i'm navigating through the thai links. but due to my linguistic brilliance here i am at the posting page! haha right.

i just watched one of the sickest and twisted movies ever, saw 3. with my MOM. gosh it was so freakin gory my mother couldn't stop saying ohmygod ohmygod and she tried to cover my eyes at some times on top of her squealing and screaming. lol. and guess what. i couldn't stop laughing! as in i was digusted as well. but it was just damn funny somehow. maybe i was amused by my mother. haha. shit man imagine if i had watched it myself. i bet i wouldn't be laughing lol.

YUCK. pity those people who created the movie. sick and twisted minds.

alright shan't blog much since its so late argh shall head to bed. today was a fun and productive day yay! haha. goodnight to myself then.

i guess its always times like this when i feel like blogging. when i'm all alone facing my com, with no one to talk to, but just many thoughts wandering around in my head.

went for drama night just now with krissay. haha guess it was quite alright, except for the fact that i fell asleep halfway through the faces play, probably because i was feeling too tired. but everyone said it was damn good! so yeah kudos to drama people. plus daniel debbie and hongsheng the tree of course. good job!

after sending krissay home i took the long walk back to my house, with my walkman plugged in. had no idea why i decided to take a walk too, maybe because i just wanted some time alone with my music. haha. couldn't think about anything much, since my eyes were already blurring and all.

today isn't really a very thinky day i wonder why, i tend to think alot during times like these. haha. oh well.

okay this is such an unfruitful update. but i'm just glad i have my blog here to keeep me company at this time. yay.

out.

damn pissed. for the 2nd time in 2 days. with the SAME PERSON. argh. i seriously don't know whats her problem. i never even do anything to you and you keep saying stuff to provoke me. and what do you mean by you can say things to me but i can't respond and defend myself?! and whats with the body language shit, can't you tell i'm tired!? RAH. i feel like punching my wall.

anyway choir today from 3 to 8 plus. coupled with shiong pe this morning, i think i'm about to die right now. plus the thunderstorm totally drenched my shoes and my lower body. rah what a day.

SYF is in what, less than 2 weeks? and our songs are still so pitchy and all. shucks i don't know how! and we can't stop rushing. its so freaking frustrating.

gold with honours. its still a dream, lets please work hard and make it a reality.

we cannot fail. cannot.

YES shit i was telling ween. i seem to have acquired a taste for EXPENSIVE ICE CREAM. omg it totally sucks up your money and i swear i'm not gonna eat anymore for a long time. (i'll try.) first it was scoopz 2 days in a row, then later in the evening a bought a bnj's cone which cost 4.50! (OMFG LA.) yes and i bought it without knowing the price -.- but it was damn nice anyway. haha.

okay quite alot of people made it through the 2nd syf auditions which is good! sorry to those who couldn't ): continue to work harder we still have pattaya! oh well i really do hope we get top choir. but first we have to worry about getting GWH FIRST! it seems like from last year till now we haven't had a SINGLE satisfying performance. we seem to screw up everytime. SHITXZ lah. we better pray that doesn't happen for syf! WE CAN DO IT.

oh yea and congratulations to strings for getting GWH! lets hope all the performing arts groups get goldorgwh, then maybe we can chant for some whateverday. since pohmeng is still ignorant to the biasness of vjc towards towards sports. haha. anyway here are some random pictures!

fashioning for the new victorian tees!

mrpoh, me, sx, ween at roxy square!

anyway session today was really good i guess. i haven't felt so "spiritually fed" in such a long time. and i think in log every single one of us are so empowered by God! lets struggle through this time together.

i just want to be where you are,
dwelling daily in your presence.
i don't want to worship from afar,
draw me near to where you are.

i want to be where you are,
dwelling in your presence.
feasting at your table,
surrounded by your glory.
in your presence,
that's where i always long to be.
i just want to be,
i just want to be, with you.

haha.

why get so worried or scared over something when there is nothing you can do about it? thats what everyone says and thats what i keep telling myself. but how come it doesn't help. sigh.

i just want it to be over i guess, over and done with.

i'm off for a run!

shit i can't stand it there's a blood clot on my finger! and now its a freakin irritating lump which hinders my movement of the mouse and my typing. haha. got it at pastamania just now THANKS to the spoilt chair, which just giap-ed my flesh. eek painful right? haha.

well i waved it away, LIKE A MAN. lol.

today we had a half day! all thanks to the wushu and crossers for winning winning. gah even if choir wins the grandprix of choral singing i bet we won't even get a quarter day off. lol. yup so headed to VCH right after physics lecture with some choir peeps to watch choir syf for almost the rest of the day! enoch sx thong may and i were predicting what each choir were gonna get and it was quite fun. i predicted a total of 3 COPs and in the end only 1 choir got COP. haha. and poor fairfield didn't get GOH! although sx and enoch were quite adamant they were damn damn good. i couldn't say anything though, i need more CHORAL experience before i can speak out. lol.

okay i think i better get back to what i'm supposed to do.

I NEED SLEEP.

hello there i haven't blogged since god knows when thats why i'm FORCING myself to keep my blog alive by posting now, although its already way past bedtime ): i hate it when i have so little hours of sleep. i'll just conk out during the day argh. and now i'm tempted to change from blogger to something else all thanks to mrpoh! indeed i think blogger is for NOOBS. haha. the world needs more sophistication.

i think i'm quite scared for SYF after today. sigh i think alot of us are working very hard already but somehow the quality is just not there. it sucks when hard work doesn't pay off eh? but its bad to see CERTAIN people still not pushing themselves when their place in the choir is actually at stake. what are you guys thinking huh?! gah. we need to uphold vjchoir's name please. do you understand the true meaning of vjchoir? do you?

somehow i no longer feel the zainess anymore. Big Sigh.

oh well what to do. every batch needs rebuilding time and i guess ours is just taking longer. (i hope) anyway choir prac totally drained me mentally and physically. and then i was feeling so hungry at the same time, which made me really look forward to going home for dinner. and then when i reached home and i saw what was for dinner, i totally got pissed off. ARGH. totally pissed off, but i didn't show it to my dad who cooked the food because you can count the number of dads who actually cook every day.

bittergourdsoup, friedfish (which was totally stiff and tough). just finished everything in the end and i was just glad i wasn't feeling hungry anymore.

forgot to say! guess i wasn't pissed for long. haha. sigh wonder how i can get angry at a thing like this. maybe its because like i said, drained. PHYSICALLY and MENTALLY. thats why my emotions and thinking gets screwed.

oh well then after that i just couldn't be bothered to do any work cos i was just too stoned. so i just stayed online and watched ami which totally rocked. i shall try to catch up with my work tmr! motivation motivation.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESLYNNNNNNNNN!!
EVERYONE ITS JESLYNN'S BIRTHDAY! (:

plus

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONGSHENG!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAQING!!

hope you enjoyed your days (:

its past your birthdays but i don't care. you guys are 18 now go watch your first m18 movie! haha.

okay its LATEEE i'm off.
and why do such people exist in this world argh.

today we were talking in the room and then suddenly we started talking about dragging. seems like some common thing which happens to everyone. does it only occur in our age or what. sigh indeed dragging is a terrible terrible feeling.
almost a year. how long more?
and then on the bus they were talking about fishing again which i couldn't catch any head or tail off. haha. why so complicated when everything can be so simple? anyway i'm not really talking about fishingfishing. haha.

aye i feel horrible. i've got this absolutely shitty feeling going on inside me which is due to a few reasons. one of them being the endless list of tutorials and assignments and lecture notes i need to catch up on. its A level year but i feel like i'm slacking more than i was in sec 4. ARGH. i really need to start, but i dunno where to start from. sigh.

anyway to all who failed syf auditions. ITS NOT OVER BECAUSE NEXT WEEK ITS GOING TO BE DIFFERENT. tell yourself that. just practise hard and have confidence in your own abilities! if you deserve it, you WILL get it.

sigh, i hate sunday afternoons.

i realised i haven't blogged in a long time. lol.

anyway! MUSICFEST IS FINALLY OVER. lol and i didn't win but i'm still happy. think i really enjoyed myself and i really thank all of you for supporting me. hahah. thanks for the flowers, the hugs, the words of encouragement everything! oh and soo for the guitar which SHINED IN THE SPOTLIGHT WOO. it was indeed a night of fun, emotion and amazement. haha.

oh and i won a fifty dollar recording voucher which is totally useless. lol if you need it come look for me.

ah and today we got our pw results as well and my entire group got a B ): its quite depressing it really is but i guess i'm gonna get over it soon. so many people in VJ got A! then when you get a B you're like shit second tier. aye. nevermind work hard for A level! i hope. haha.

oh and i got my new phone. this is it!

sony ericsson w880i the sexy slim phone on tv. happy boy! this is gonna have to be my phone for the next 30 months. lol.

ok tired more next time ciao.

tagged by mrpoh. so i'm supposed to post like 6 weird/interesting facts about myself yes? here goes.

#1. I had been bald for 15 years of my life before i decided to leave hair to grow in august 2004.

#2. Ever since leaving my hair to grow i've had variations of hairstyles. from spiked, to centre parting, to side parting, to MOHAWK/CHICKENBACKSIDE, and to now whatever it is.

#3. I was cadet scout of the year when i was in p6. on top of that i was quartermaster and i was awarded the district commissioners award. no doubt, i was a pretigious (fat) scout in the past.

#4. I was very fat and round in the past and a tremendous amount of effort was put in to recreate myself into what i am today. haha. sounds inspirational? ask me for my old picture.

#5. I developed a phobia for veggies when i tried to showoff to my cousin that i could eat veggies when i was young, but ended up puking everything out. then the green puke just freaked me. now i'm starting to accept veggies again. yup, vegetarians as well. HAHA.

#6. I'm a singing machine. I sing everywhere. in the lift, corridor, living room, toilet. i think all my neighbours should have heard me by now. one kind neighbour responded with a loud "OI!" before. really appreciative neighbours i have.

YUP SO THATS 6. interesting facts about myself. hmm didn't take too long to think of them, suprisingly. haha. so the 6 lucky people who will have to do this quiz along with me will be

1. ricer
2. jeslynn
3. tim soo
4. krissay
5. jiaming
6. ethel

congratulations yay! lol. don't feel obliged to do it though. i know you are all very busy people haha.

aye i swear i'm gonna be more hardworking from tmr onwards. i think i've slacked enough so its time to work my socks off! shall try not to be distracted by my computer especially. hmm.

mass today was nice. glad i went for 6pm. although i felt quite sorang because only 3 people including me were occupying one entire row. good thing was that i could concentrate better for the first time in dunno how long, plus the choir is much better than the 9am one. haha. PLUS i got to see my dear ngiamster friend who said i was DAO when actually i gave her my sexysmile. HAHA.

aye chris daughtry's voice is so nice i want his voice. this song rocks. plus, its even nicer when you read the lyrics and really feel the song. guess the second verse speaks alot to me.

Chris Daughtry - Home

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

now i know what is one of the worst feelings of this world.

WAKING UP.

after a supersupersupersupersuper nice dream. )):

it was like sinking my head back into my pillow with sorrow after coming out of this "wonderland", back staring into the cold hard ceiling of my enclosed room. AH. the CRUELTY of REALITY. lol.

this is seriously not a good morning. i got overcome by LAZINESS and decided to go for 6pm mass. now i'm regretting it. plus i think of all the work i have left, i just wanna puke.

why couldn't i pause the dream ):

AIYA HOW. really leh.

so depressing can nelson said our performance today was bad beyond belief. this is the first time i've heard him (or seen him) say that in vjchoir. its scary cos he really sounded pissed PLUS he also said get ready for SYF auditions next sat cos he doesn't need more than 60 people on stage.

WORK HARD. my brothers and sisters. you have 1 entire week left.

and nowadays i don't really see the point in exercising because i just EATLIKETHERESNOTOMORROW. my exercise routines can hardly make up for the amount of NUTRITION that i'm consuming can. wah lau. maybe i should go on a diet. hahaha. haven't gone on one in a longlong time. maybe thats why. MAYBE I SHOULD.

aye shit man u is losing 1-0 at halftime so sad. and there's no one to talk to online BOOHOO. hahah.

its easter. christ has risen from the dead!

sigh i'm tired! i think i'm gonna sleep soon. record earliest cos its only like 10.40. haha. AND I HAVEN'T GONE FOR CONFESSION!

2nd year in a row never go confession before easter. everyone should just give me a slap.

anyway random picture of the day.

WATCHA LOOKING AT.

ween says i can't take properphotos. maybe its true. lol.

okay i ate 4 meals altogether today. 1 light and 3 heavy. but i seriously think that muddymudpie is the cause of the layeroffat that just appeared on my lowerabs. haha. PLEASE DISAPPEAR WHEN I WAKE UP TMR.

shit musicfest is scary i'm not confident that i can win. maybe because of my song choice! hopefully it'll be good enough. otherwise, God please show me a sign that i need to change my song. haha.

restringing an accoustic. NEW HEADACHE.

crankycrankyday. but not a very happy day for me as well. haha. exco nominees plus new musicco announced! congratulations to every one of you who got in! do your best for vj choir (:

now i sound like some vjchoir patriot. haha.

i'm feeling really tired from school, choir, running, emotions. and i feel like i need a longlongsleep to get me through. before i slept last night i looked at the clock at it was 12.32. then i said to myself, fuck less than 6 hours of sleep again. but then now i'm sitting here thinking that i can't afford to sleep because i've got my maclaurin's to complete otherwise mrhwk is gonna come and question me again. but on the other hand i'm totally not in the mood for anything now and i've got my musicfest thing to settle. ARGH irritating.

sorry for the angsty paragraph.

sigh sometimes i do some things which aren't really correct, then when i think back i'm like, why the hell did you do such or thing, or say such a thing. i guess i'm trying to be perfect, and i want to be accepted by everyone around me? aye the wrong steps that i take. i just hope i don't live to regret any of these actions, ever.

saw this quote on the channel 8 show just now.

the greatest tragedy in life is having someone right in front of you, but not getting to say i love you.

says something, treasure every single person in your life. out.

gosh i totally forgot today is april fool's day! not until stupid frederick sent a message to the basses saying tmr choir prac is cancelled because weather forecast says its gonna snow -.- haha. then after that i straightaway got into the aprilfoolsday mood and sent my aprilfools message to a few people. but nobody got tricked ): all i got back was a message from xiuquan saying:

haha nice one slut! _!_

oh well. typical vulgar shit. anyway to the rest, just too bad if you didn't receive it! haha.

okay yet again i spent my entire weekend doing nothing. i think i really need to change this stupid habit of mine. people are supposed to mug the hardest during the weekends. argh. i was going for dinner with my mum just now and she was like telling me all her financial plans and whatever for me then i'm like wow! you've got it all planned out. haha. i think i better start studying hard soon, for my parents as well as for myself. yay.

i sound like a filial boy all of a sudden don't I. haha.

hmm okay. i'm currently experiencing some lows now. shan't blog further! haha. ban emoshitxz! seeyou people (: