i think i'm starting to fall sick, totally feeling un-right now. haha. well totally wrong time as well, since my most dreaded prelims are starting in 2 weeks time. and gp today wasn't that much of a nice beginning as well.

anyways, this will probably be my last post for a very long time to come, since by tmr (if everything goes according to plan) my keyboard should have been confiscated and i've sunken into my own lonely world of solitude with nothing but notes and books and whatever during evenings. haha. i seriously wonder how i'm going to survive.

i'm feeling emo suddenly, been a long time since i've felt this. kinda lost touch with it already i could say. haha. well for no particular reasons, probably just reliving old thoughts or whatever. and its truly amazing how things can change with a snap.

all the way people! lets work towards acadamic divinity/nirvana. haha. till next time then.

Labels: goodbyeforever.

yes by tuesday my keyboard will be gone and i think i'm gonna be gone from the online world for at least a month.

and i say. YAY. time to study.

well didn't do much for gp today. tried to read some articles but couldn't complete much. god bless me. haha.

grandma cooked dinner today, all the stuff that i like to eat. i think she still knows me best, having brought me up for 14 years. i do miss her dearly ): and its great to see everyone so happy in the family. its quite a blessing i believe.

good luck to all those who are studying hard! try not to get distracted. (like me)

someone help me delete pokemon from my phone the next time you see me thanks.

goodbye then (:

Labels: shortandsweet.

okay i suddenly thought of a new analogy.

was just eating my dad's horrid fried "rock" nuggets, chewing like i've never chewed before, trying hard to swallow, and then i suddenly thought of this.

although the nuggets really suck on the outside, because you really have to chew like hell and totally squeeze your jaws to sink your teeth in, once you're on the inside, it really really tastes good (analogy. actually it didn't really taste very nice hehe.) so i was thinking, maybe "rock" nuggets are like taking exams. you really have to grit your teeth, persevere like hell. (chew and chew) but then when you finally get to the nice part of rewarding results, ah, the sense of satisfaction engulfs you.

well i can only say 2 words right now.

thanks dad :D

Labels: nugget.

today's journey home was a long one. went to parkway after studying to get something, but i missed the 76 bus. haha. so from then on it was more than an hour before i got home. but now that i've got my nice walkman phone back with all the songs, gosh i do cherish these moments i have with myself. listening to songs on a long bus ride back at night certainly gives you the "i'm in another world" feeling. haha. been a long time since i've felt like that.

i've got timberlake's futuresex/lovesounds album on my phone. and i've been listening to it for so long but it wasn't till today that i realised there's an emo song in the album! not those kind of sex-ed up jiggly rhythm boombooms in like most of the other songs. but really that kind of wah, meltxzxzxz. like how guin would say. hahaha. he should seriously have more songs like that.

oh well. today i suddenly felt quite depressed. feeling as if i suddenly became very small, struggling to cope with all the shit in this world. and when i say shit i mean GP prelims which is already next monday. thinking about it just makes me sick argh. theres seriously not much time left, wonder how i'm gonna be able to finish everything. god help me.

oh and btw, i stayed in school today till 8! latest i've even stayed till for reasons other than choir this year. haha. but of course i was doing work. i think studying at night in school feels great, because there's less commotion and people and more space to yourself, physically and mentally. haha. reminds me of promo days, when i used to stay till 9 plus. well gonna start that again soon. home is such a bad place to study. for example now, when i actually am supposed to be doing my chem but still ended up blogging. haha. ah well. who cares. blogging is such a rarity nowadays anyway.

oh well, i've just been too lazy to put down my thoughts here, although i've been thinking alot about stuff recently.

ah. why did it go away so fast. i can't understand why.

till next time then (:

Labels: puteverythingaside.

okay yay i've finally decided to come out of my hiatus. okay actually there was not hiatus, just that i've been such a bum lately, although there's been many things i've wanted to blog about. haha. oh well 230th post! nice even numberr.

alright this week has totally been wonderful, except for the fact that i haven't touched any work or notes or whatever since tuesday and thats SUPER TERRIBLE. and whats worse is that i'm gonna be sitting for some psychiometric test that shiyi and jiaqing psychoed me to go for, when actually i'm not even intending to work in the government sector next time. wadda hell am i doing. lol. I NEED TO STUDY! argh, whats the point of saying this. haha.

anyway, i wanna say a BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEG THANK YOU to everyone who made this national day (yea alot of you all wish me happy national day -.-) week a superduper nice one, one of the best i've ever had (: haha. shall talk abit about these few days in the next paragraphs.

wednesday:
spent an evening at jerrold's house cooking, eating, laughing, watching tv and whoring. we haven't had such a magnitude of a gathering for so long already and thank god it was a good one. haha. and i'm totally zai at cooking the nuggets please. lol. but huping's sushi was even nicer. koped food like mad until when the real dinner started i was already full. haha. anyway thanks for the "desperate houseboys" shirt. i totally love it although it doesn't reflect me as a person. HAHA.

thursday:
okay the previous night i was like telling soo, wah lau my mum scold me sia on my birthday. she was like scolding me about my room and telling me to go to bed. but obviously i couldn't be bothered to argue. haha. and i also think i told chingxz i bet my church friends are too lazy to do anything. BUT THEN, gosh the next morning i woke up the whole GANG of them were there in my room. and i seriously thought i was dreaming, totally shell shockish okay! imagine some guy still drooling on his pillow with his hair like some kokkokkei still lying on his bed with like many people staring at him. yea thats me, being unglam when i wasn't even AWARE. haha. but yea can't thank you loggers enough (: best surprise ever! ganged up with my evil mum. lol. heng i play pokemon until damn late, thats why sleeping like a super Thir. (pig)

then i had lunch with my parents at some broken down coffeeshop at amk ave 2 opposite horizon gardens. my dad's intention was not to be extravagant, refusing to go to vivo or whatever to eat, but HAHA. in the end we spent 70 bucks eating at the western stall there. i had some 34 bucks steak which my mum ordered for me (i think to spite my dad), but i was just keeping quiet. innocent party! lol. ate like a Thir again, the amount of fries we had could make a mini-hill. lol. in the end my dad was like, "aiyah sian. should have gone to vivo." HAHA. funny ttm.

then the evening was spent with sherwin, alena, isabelle, cherissa, kenny and yizha! went to town to eat and watch fireworks. totally had a smashing time (: and yea i had fun smashing the stupid rock cake too. lol. i think polar cheated us leh really. anyway we managed to catch the fireworks just on time! but had to like squeeze through gazillions of people with armpitxz smells everywhere, then ended up watching through branches. haha. but it was super nice anyway, i thought this year's fireworks was nicer than usual. actually everything this year seemed nicer. lol. well, totally enjoyed all the talking and laughing and singing and grooving and whoring at fullerton till the security guard chased us away. i totally didn't want the night to end, totally felt like the time when we were leaving pattaya. haha. and i think what ween said on her blog's really true. why pattaya not earlier, otherwise we would have more time for each other already. ): i'll never forget all the things we shared, the pongsakongs, puasius, laocais, POTTs, choose fingers blahblahblah. haha, total unleashment of retardedness. oh well. thank god for this great group over here, (plus all the others who disappeared: mel, sx, enoch, rhoda, may) :D


today:
NOTHING TO SAY LA. just that i slacked the whole day away. only good thing is that i went to gym to work off all the BUI BA i chalked up for the past few days. hahaha. eh that sounded funny! lol. can't believe i'm laughing at my own sentence hahahaha. anyway i deserve to die for not studying!

okay i made an effort this year to reply to all those who wished me after last years aftermath where i replied some but didn't reply to others then many people say i biased. HAHA. but yea thanks to all who wished me and gave me stuff! can't be thankful enough for the great friends and family i have :D

this entry somehow took super long to blog. partly because my kitchen just got FLOODED and i had to help to clear the water. alright happy national day week people. TIME TO STUDY! off i go!

Labels: ablessing.

i think i'm starting to fall sick, totally feeling un-right now. haha. well totally wrong time as well, since my most dreaded prelims are starting in 2 weeks time. and gp today wasn't that much of a nice beginning as well.

anyways, this will probably be my last post for a very long time to come, since by tmr (if everything goes according to plan) my keyboard should have been confiscated and i've sunken into my own lonely world of solitude with nothing but notes and books and whatever during evenings. haha. i seriously wonder how i'm going to survive.

i'm feeling emo suddenly, been a long time since i've felt this. kinda lost touch with it already i could say. haha. well for no particular reasons, probably just reliving old thoughts or whatever. and its truly amazing how things can change with a snap.

all the way people! lets work towards acadamic divinity/nirvana. haha. till next time then.

Labels: goodbyeforever.

yes by tuesday my keyboard will be gone and i think i'm gonna be gone from the online world for at least a month.

and i say. YAY. time to study.

well didn't do much for gp today. tried to read some articles but couldn't complete much. god bless me. haha.

grandma cooked dinner today, all the stuff that i like to eat. i think she still knows me best, having brought me up for 14 years. i do miss her dearly ): and its great to see everyone so happy in the family. its quite a blessing i believe.

good luck to all those who are studying hard! try not to get distracted. (like me)

someone help me delete pokemon from my phone the next time you see me thanks.

goodbye then (:

Labels: shortandsweet.

okay i suddenly thought of a new analogy.

was just eating my dad's horrid fried "rock" nuggets, chewing like i've never chewed before, trying hard to swallow, and then i suddenly thought of this.

although the nuggets really suck on the outside, because you really have to chew like hell and totally squeeze your jaws to sink your teeth in, once you're on the inside, it really really tastes good (analogy. actually it didn't really taste very nice hehe.) so i was thinking, maybe "rock" nuggets are like taking exams. you really have to grit your teeth, persevere like hell. (chew and chew) but then when you finally get to the nice part of rewarding results, ah, the sense of satisfaction engulfs you.

well i can only say 2 words right now.

thanks dad :D

Labels: nugget.

today's journey home was a long one. went to parkway after studying to get something, but i missed the 76 bus. haha. so from then on it was more than an hour before i got home. but now that i've got my nice walkman phone back with all the songs, gosh i do cherish these moments i have with myself. listening to songs on a long bus ride back at night certainly gives you the "i'm in another world" feeling. haha. been a long time since i've felt like that.

i've got timberlake's futuresex/lovesounds album on my phone. and i've been listening to it for so long but it wasn't till today that i realised there's an emo song in the album! not those kind of sex-ed up jiggly rhythm boombooms in like most of the other songs. but really that kind of wah, meltxzxzxz. like how guin would say. hahaha. he should seriously have more songs like that.

oh well. today i suddenly felt quite depressed. feeling as if i suddenly became very small, struggling to cope with all the shit in this world. and when i say shit i mean GP prelims which is already next monday. thinking about it just makes me sick argh. theres seriously not much time left, wonder how i'm gonna be able to finish everything. god help me.

oh and btw, i stayed in school today till 8! latest i've even stayed till for reasons other than choir this year. haha. but of course i was doing work. i think studying at night in school feels great, because there's less commotion and people and more space to yourself, physically and mentally. haha. reminds me of promo days, when i used to stay till 9 plus. well gonna start that again soon. home is such a bad place to study. for example now, when i actually am supposed to be doing my chem but still ended up blogging. haha. ah well. who cares. blogging is such a rarity nowadays anyway.

oh well, i've just been too lazy to put down my thoughts here, although i've been thinking alot about stuff recently.

ah. why did it go away so fast. i can't understand why.

till next time then (:

Labels: puteverythingaside.

okay yay i've finally decided to come out of my hiatus. okay actually there was not hiatus, just that i've been such a bum lately, although there's been many things i've wanted to blog about. haha. oh well 230th post! nice even numberr.

alright this week has totally been wonderful, except for the fact that i haven't touched any work or notes or whatever since tuesday and thats SUPER TERRIBLE. and whats worse is that i'm gonna be sitting for some psychiometric test that shiyi and jiaqing psychoed me to go for, when actually i'm not even intending to work in the government sector next time. wadda hell am i doing. lol. I NEED TO STUDY! argh, whats the point of saying this. haha.

anyway, i wanna say a BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEG THANK YOU to everyone who made this national day (yea alot of you all wish me happy national day -.-) week a superduper nice one, one of the best i've ever had (: haha. shall talk abit about these few days in the next paragraphs.

wednesday:
spent an evening at jerrold's house cooking, eating, laughing, watching tv and whoring. we haven't had such a magnitude of a gathering for so long already and thank god it was a good one. haha. and i'm totally zai at cooking the nuggets please. lol. but huping's sushi was even nicer. koped food like mad until when the real dinner started i was already full. haha. anyway thanks for the "desperate houseboys" shirt. i totally love it although it doesn't reflect me as a person. HAHA.

thursday:
okay the previous night i was like telling soo, wah lau my mum scold me sia on my birthday. she was like scolding me about my room and telling me to go to bed. but obviously i couldn't be bothered to argue. haha. and i also think i told chingxz i bet my church friends are too lazy to do anything. BUT THEN, gosh the next morning i woke up the whole GANG of them were there in my room. and i seriously thought i was dreaming, totally shell shockish okay! imagine some guy still drooling on his pillow with his hair like some kokkokkei still lying on his bed with like many people staring at him. yea thats me, being unglam when i wasn't even AWARE. haha. but yea can't thank you loggers enough (: best surprise ever! ganged up with my evil mum. lol. heng i play pokemon until damn late, thats why sleeping like a super Thir. (pig)

then i had lunch with my parents at some broken down coffeeshop at amk ave 2 opposite horizon gardens. my dad's intention was not to be extravagant, refusing to go to vivo or whatever to eat, but HAHA. in the end we spent 70 bucks eating at the western stall there. i had some 34 bucks steak which my mum ordered for me (i think to spite my dad), but i was just keeping quiet. innocent party! lol. ate like a Thir again, the amount of fries we had could make a mini-hill. lol. in the end my dad was like, "aiyah sian. should have gone to vivo." HAHA. funny ttm.

then the evening was spent with sherwin, alena, isabelle, cherissa, kenny and yizha! went to town to eat and watch fireworks. totally had a smashing time (: and yea i had fun smashing the stupid rock cake too. lol. i think polar cheated us leh really. anyway we managed to catch the fireworks just on time! but had to like squeeze through gazillions of people with armpitxz smells everywhere, then ended up watching through branches. haha. but it was super nice anyway, i thought this year's fireworks was nicer than usual. actually everything this year seemed nicer. lol. well, totally enjoyed all the talking and laughing and singing and grooving and whoring at fullerton till the security guard chased us away. i totally didn't want the night to end, totally felt like the time when we were leaving pattaya. haha. and i think what ween said on her blog's really true. why pattaya not earlier, otherwise we would have more time for each other already. ): i'll never forget all the things we shared, the pongsakongs, puasius, laocais, POTTs, choose fingers blahblahblah. haha, total unleashment of retardedness. oh well. thank god for this great group over here, (plus all the others who disappeared: mel, sx, enoch, rhoda, may) :D


today:
NOTHING TO SAY LA. just that i slacked the whole day away. only good thing is that i went to gym to work off all the BUI BA i chalked up for the past few days. hahaha. eh that sounded funny! lol. can't believe i'm laughing at my own sentence hahahaha. anyway i deserve to die for not studying!

okay i made an effort this year to reply to all those who wished me after last years aftermath where i replied some but didn't reply to others then many people say i biased. HAHA. but yea thanks to all who wished me and gave me stuff! can't be thankful enough for the great friends and family i have :D

this entry somehow took super long to blog. partly because my kitchen just got FLOODED and i had to help to clear the water. alright happy national day week people. TIME TO STUDY! off i go!

Labels: ablessing.