oh man. i just suddenly realised that the first 3 months of my jc life are almost over!! i'm starting to get worried cos i haven't really started settling, in terms of my studies. i remember telling myself at the start of the year, that i wouldn't be carrying my indifferent attitude towards work in jc, but seems like i'm not fulfilling my own promise. AHH its like i'm bored like that! i really must be consistent man. i know if i really study i can do it. I CAN THRASH SOO! (4 As. haha) i must start being consistent, kick my arse if i don't. hahah. (putting my arse at risk here)

i can't wait for italy! oh man the thought of being in the cool(supposedly freezing) weather, watching corky italians siestaing everywhere in the afternoon, occasionally waking up to show their "you want to eat?" hand signal at irritating singaporeans walking past. hahaha. BEWILDERMENT. anyway yea can't wait, really hope i DO enjoy myself. its gonna be my first ever choir competition! wheee. it feels great, esp when you're in VJ CHOIR. wooooo! sad thing is that i'm gonna miss good friday, holy thursday ): sucks since its like the culmination of your LONG journey in lent with god. i think i'll most probably be on the plane? haha.

they say this year's symphony of voices (choir concert) is gonna have a higher entertainment value as compared to last year. cos they say last year was vj choir's first ever esplanade performance, so nelson (conductor) wanted to make it as professional as possible. that's why it was sorta ya know..boring. haha. BUY TICKETS YEA?? its priced at 20 30 and 40 bucks. but you guys would most probably go for the cheapest. 16th may tuesday, 7.30pm. GET THEM FROM SISTIC!! (loggers please go! haha)

my mother is pissed cos i'm always out these days. and she says even when i'm at home, its like i'm not at home at all. "you have no parents, no home la. just go hug your computer your handphone. nevermind la. sucks right? nevemind" yes my mother. its kinda irritating, but partly my fault too. i shall try to remain at home as much as i can, till i leave! tension at home is just making me feel sick. whats even worse is that i just lost my freakin 16 bucks NALGENE bottle. this morning my mother was asking where it was, i said i left it in church :X god forgive me. ah. then she got pissed, then she cry. wah lau. i also dunno what to say. my mother is really the type cannot CIJI (provoke? err agitate?). i'll just go have to buy another bottle tmr, hai. MORE MONEY WASTED. and my dad hasn't given me pocket money for 2 weeks ): i've been surviving on my hongpao money.

take away my human weakness.

yes you b***h? haha. i'm not biased lor, just that you wish to think that way. lol. anyway YES NO MORE MR SOFTEE HAIR. dunno whether to be happy or sad, my hair's so short now! it needs to GROW GROW GROW. but somehow people say it looks ok. really meh?? hmmm. haha. aye i wish i could show all of you my MR SOFTEE passport photo, so nice the face but the hair spoil it all. stupid thing had to be slanted. haha. maybe it is time for a change?

wah 17 days left only! i still haven't fully recovered from my stupid ILLNESSES. cough cough running nose, WHEN IS IT GONNA STOP?? i've eaten like numerous packets of strepsils, applied (milli)LITRES of fengyou on my nose. still no use. i need to learn how to stop straining my voice when i sing!! otherwise it'll just get worse i guess.

i've decided to start doing my work! no more slacking. i'm gonna join the mug gang. hahah. recently i've been thinkin bout this, and if i really do carry on slacking, i'm just gonna die of guilt. everybody is MOVING, while i'm still like crawling. must catch up don't care. haha. I DO HOPE I'LL DO WHAT I SAY. I HOPE....

ah lent is getting more testing than ever. yesterday night i just got TESTED. but i failed terribly. don't really wanna talk about it, but I'LL BE MORE AWARE OF THE DEVIL from now on. the stupid idiot. he's the real B***H. haha.

keep in mind -jesus-

shit man i'm going for choir camp tmr! i'm starting to dread choir really, its so tiring that i can even fall asleep when i'm standing up and singing. i've been sick since like dunno when, so much thick mucus, so much phlegm, so much cough cough cough, just feel like dying. and now i have this terrible headache, but i'm still bothering to update. haha. oh well. i seriously need more rest, guess my lent sacrifice of using less of the com is not being fulfilled. THE COM is taking away my sleeping time. STUPID COM. STUPID MSN. i'm a d**k, i'm addicted to you. haha.

i love all the loggers la really. i thought sharing on sunday was good, though not everyone was really there. i think it made us more aware of each other, what we're experiencing and stuff. like i said i felt that maybe we were neglecting some members of our community, maybe its time that i really took the first step in reaching out. i wanna change my phone web people i don't care! haha. but ah not everything was shared out i could say, indeed there will still be things some of us still keep inside out hearts. we can continue to urge each other to pray, continue to confide in each other, and hopefully we'll all walk through this lent together and come out stronger. GO LOG! GO LOG! GO LOG! love ya guys.

i seriously need to catch up on my work. its time to get my butt off the slacker's couch and onto the mugger's table. gosh the ricer and the sooster and the everybody all starting to mug mug mug and i'm still here slack slack slack. KICK MY ARSE MAN. i need a headstart. everybody FREEZE. haha. stupid devil and all his temptations. stupid world with all the diseases and sickness and running noses and coughs and sore throats and headaches. stupid oliver with his pig brain big butt lazy bum ass. haha. i think my mucus has really gone up to my brain!! ahhhhh. alright i shall stop now. i'm getting crappy by the moment. TAG MY BOARD!!!!!

blog revamp! this time i promise its real. but the thing is i realised that only when i start to feel depressed about stuff, then i start to blog. good cos shows that i haven't been that depressed in a long time. bad cos i think after this period of depression my blog will enter again enter in extinction. well anyway yea these past few days haven't been the best for me, or should i say, its been the worst period of time i've experienced in a long long while. well indeed there are more than one factors contributing to my state of unrest, and i don't really know how to deal with them la.

i've been reflecting on my personality. sometimes i wonder whether my personality is something good or not, cos i'm the kind of person who loves to make people laugh. its like the best feeling in the world, but then again, i feel like i'm not allowed to bring on my personality at where i am now. i've tried, but at times it hasn't been that successful. and i think it was this that started me thinking, it just sucks when you have this feeling that the stuff you say is totally irrelevant and nonsensical and stuff. oversensitive? maybe. could be. should be. i do hope so. i just feel that i'm not used to this yet. maybe i need more time, maybe....

god really comes to you when you're feeling super low. when the feeling of dejection fell upon me like a huge rock in the sky, god immediately came into my mind. and no i'm not feeling dejected cos i feel i can't fit in into where i am right now, but cos of something else. anyway, i wonder what i'll do without him. pouring out your woes to your friends, yes it helps, but there is only so much your friends can do. ultimately, the only person who can heal you is god the father himself. although sometimes i feel indifferent to his presence, most of the time, its really comforting to be able to talk to someone, even if it seems as if he's not there. on the cab home just now jamie was like saying she finds praising god for something like helping you to mug for your exams, when its actually your own hard work and merit, is retarded. logical? doesn't make me sway away from my belief. god is there, i know he's there.

4 weeks away. some of us have started to dream, hopes put high, yet it still seems difficult. though it has only been 2 months plus, i must admit that i feel drained, tired, weary. usually they say if you have the passion for something, nothing can stop you from getting tired of it, but somehow i'm starting to doubt. yes today's sharing/talk was morale boosting, it woke us up, it gave us renewed confidence, but i wonder how long i can continue this way. the small period of euphoria, of enthusiasm, just seems to fade away so quickly. we need to push forward together guys, we need to fulfill expectations. "as long as you do your best, the results will take care of itself" pray for strength and unity. let's chiong together, let's mug our scores when we die in dota. yes lets do it, just do it, and hope we don't falter.

06S64. class that rocked, class that seems to be quite torn apart by the reality of this world. well, never knew how impt certain people were, until it came the time for them to leave. we came with different personalities, diff backgrounds, yet somehow, we bonded, we fought, we walked together for the past month. i dunno what to feel, i dunno whether i should feel anything. but i don't want anybody to leave, i know it. then again, there always comes a time when we have to part. yes its sad and hard to accept, but we have to carry on with our lives. i appreciate the fact that each one of us have become friends, and i really do hope we continue to cherish these friendships, be they in storm or disaster. i'll never forget the times....never. ever.

lent is a season of sacrifice, to offer up in spirit and truth our entire beings to christ
remember that he died on the cross for us, remember that he died to save us, remember....
everytime you feel like sinning, remember...
everytime you feel like doing something against his will, remember...
in whatever you do, remember...

once again i looked upon the cross where you died
i'm humbled by your mercy, and i'm broken inside
once again i thank you
once again i pour out my life....

oh man. i just suddenly realised that the first 3 months of my jc life are almost over!! i'm starting to get worried cos i haven't really started settling, in terms of my studies. i remember telling myself at the start of the year, that i wouldn't be carrying my indifferent attitude towards work in jc, but seems like i'm not fulfilling my own promise. AHH its like i'm bored like that! i really must be consistent man. i know if i really study i can do it. I CAN THRASH SOO! (4 As. haha) i must start being consistent, kick my arse if i don't. hahah. (putting my arse at risk here)

i can't wait for italy! oh man the thought of being in the cool(supposedly freezing) weather, watching corky italians siestaing everywhere in the afternoon, occasionally waking up to show their "you want to eat?" hand signal at irritating singaporeans walking past. hahaha. BEWILDERMENT. anyway yea can't wait, really hope i DO enjoy myself. its gonna be my first ever choir competition! wheee. it feels great, esp when you're in VJ CHOIR. wooooo! sad thing is that i'm gonna miss good friday, holy thursday ): sucks since its like the culmination of your LONG journey in lent with god. i think i'll most probably be on the plane? haha.

they say this year's symphony of voices (choir concert) is gonna have a higher entertainment value as compared to last year. cos they say last year was vj choir's first ever esplanade performance, so nelson (conductor) wanted to make it as professional as possible. that's why it was sorta ya know..boring. haha. BUY TICKETS YEA?? its priced at 20 30 and 40 bucks. but you guys would most probably go for the cheapest. 16th may tuesday, 7.30pm. GET THEM FROM SISTIC!! (loggers please go! haha)

my mother is pissed cos i'm always out these days. and she says even when i'm at home, its like i'm not at home at all. "you have no parents, no home la. just go hug your computer your handphone. nevermind la. sucks right? nevemind" yes my mother. its kinda irritating, but partly my fault too. i shall try to remain at home as much as i can, till i leave! tension at home is just making me feel sick. whats even worse is that i just lost my freakin 16 bucks NALGENE bottle. this morning my mother was asking where it was, i said i left it in church :X god forgive me. ah. then she got pissed, then she cry. wah lau. i also dunno what to say. my mother is really the type cannot CIJI (provoke? err agitate?). i'll just go have to buy another bottle tmr, hai. MORE MONEY WASTED. and my dad hasn't given me pocket money for 2 weeks ): i've been surviving on my hongpao money.

take away my human weakness.

yes you b***h? haha. i'm not biased lor, just that you wish to think that way. lol. anyway YES NO MORE MR SOFTEE HAIR. dunno whether to be happy or sad, my hair's so short now! it needs to GROW GROW GROW. but somehow people say it looks ok. really meh?? hmmm. haha. aye i wish i could show all of you my MR SOFTEE passport photo, so nice the face but the hair spoil it all. stupid thing had to be slanted. haha. maybe it is time for a change?

wah 17 days left only! i still haven't fully recovered from my stupid ILLNESSES. cough cough running nose, WHEN IS IT GONNA STOP?? i've eaten like numerous packets of strepsils, applied (milli)LITRES of fengyou on my nose. still no use. i need to learn how to stop straining my voice when i sing!! otherwise it'll just get worse i guess.

i've decided to start doing my work! no more slacking. i'm gonna join the mug gang. hahah. recently i've been thinkin bout this, and if i really do carry on slacking, i'm just gonna die of guilt. everybody is MOVING, while i'm still like crawling. must catch up don't care. haha. I DO HOPE I'LL DO WHAT I SAY. I HOPE....

ah lent is getting more testing than ever. yesterday night i just got TESTED. but i failed terribly. don't really wanna talk about it, but I'LL BE MORE AWARE OF THE DEVIL from now on. the stupid idiot. he's the real B***H. haha.

keep in mind -jesus-

shit man i'm going for choir camp tmr! i'm starting to dread choir really, its so tiring that i can even fall asleep when i'm standing up and singing. i've been sick since like dunno when, so much thick mucus, so much phlegm, so much cough cough cough, just feel like dying. and now i have this terrible headache, but i'm still bothering to update. haha. oh well. i seriously need more rest, guess my lent sacrifice of using less of the com is not being fulfilled. THE COM is taking away my sleeping time. STUPID COM. STUPID MSN. i'm a d**k, i'm addicted to you. haha.

i love all the loggers la really. i thought sharing on sunday was good, though not everyone was really there. i think it made us more aware of each other, what we're experiencing and stuff. like i said i felt that maybe we were neglecting some members of our community, maybe its time that i really took the first step in reaching out. i wanna change my phone web people i don't care! haha. but ah not everything was shared out i could say, indeed there will still be things some of us still keep inside out hearts. we can continue to urge each other to pray, continue to confide in each other, and hopefully we'll all walk through this lent together and come out stronger. GO LOG! GO LOG! GO LOG! love ya guys.

i seriously need to catch up on my work. its time to get my butt off the slacker's couch and onto the mugger's table. gosh the ricer and the sooster and the everybody all starting to mug mug mug and i'm still here slack slack slack. KICK MY ARSE MAN. i need a headstart. everybody FREEZE. haha. stupid devil and all his temptations. stupid world with all the diseases and sickness and running noses and coughs and sore throats and headaches. stupid oliver with his pig brain big butt lazy bum ass. haha. i think my mucus has really gone up to my brain!! ahhhhh. alright i shall stop now. i'm getting crappy by the moment. TAG MY BOARD!!!!!

blog revamp! this time i promise its real. but the thing is i realised that only when i start to feel depressed about stuff, then i start to blog. good cos shows that i haven't been that depressed in a long time. bad cos i think after this period of depression my blog will enter again enter in extinction. well anyway yea these past few days haven't been the best for me, or should i say, its been the worst period of time i've experienced in a long long while. well indeed there are more than one factors contributing to my state of unrest, and i don't really know how to deal with them la.

i've been reflecting on my personality. sometimes i wonder whether my personality is something good or not, cos i'm the kind of person who loves to make people laugh. its like the best feeling in the world, but then again, i feel like i'm not allowed to bring on my personality at where i am now. i've tried, but at times it hasn't been that successful. and i think it was this that started me thinking, it just sucks when you have this feeling that the stuff you say is totally irrelevant and nonsensical and stuff. oversensitive? maybe. could be. should be. i do hope so. i just feel that i'm not used to this yet. maybe i need more time, maybe....

god really comes to you when you're feeling super low. when the feeling of dejection fell upon me like a huge rock in the sky, god immediately came into my mind. and no i'm not feeling dejected cos i feel i can't fit in into where i am right now, but cos of something else. anyway, i wonder what i'll do without him. pouring out your woes to your friends, yes it helps, but there is only so much your friends can do. ultimately, the only person who can heal you is god the father himself. although sometimes i feel indifferent to his presence, most of the time, its really comforting to be able to talk to someone, even if it seems as if he's not there. on the cab home just now jamie was like saying she finds praising god for something like helping you to mug for your exams, when its actually your own hard work and merit, is retarded. logical? doesn't make me sway away from my belief. god is there, i know he's there.

4 weeks away. some of us have started to dream, hopes put high, yet it still seems difficult. though it has only been 2 months plus, i must admit that i feel drained, tired, weary. usually they say if you have the passion for something, nothing can stop you from getting tired of it, but somehow i'm starting to doubt. yes today's sharing/talk was morale boosting, it woke us up, it gave us renewed confidence, but i wonder how long i can continue this way. the small period of euphoria, of enthusiasm, just seems to fade away so quickly. we need to push forward together guys, we need to fulfill expectations. "as long as you do your best, the results will take care of itself" pray for strength and unity. let's chiong together, let's mug our scores when we die in dota. yes lets do it, just do it, and hope we don't falter.

06S64. class that rocked, class that seems to be quite torn apart by the reality of this world. well, never knew how impt certain people were, until it came the time for them to leave. we came with different personalities, diff backgrounds, yet somehow, we bonded, we fought, we walked together for the past month. i dunno what to feel, i dunno whether i should feel anything. but i don't want anybody to leave, i know it. then again, there always comes a time when we have to part. yes its sad and hard to accept, but we have to carry on with our lives. i appreciate the fact that each one of us have become friends, and i really do hope we continue to cherish these friendships, be they in storm or disaster. i'll never forget the times....never. ever.

lent is a season of sacrifice, to offer up in spirit and truth our entire beings to christ
remember that he died on the cross for us, remember that he died to save us, remember....
everytime you feel like sinning, remember...
everytime you feel like doing something against his will, remember...
in whatever you do, remember...

once again i looked upon the cross where you died
i'm humbled by your mercy, and i'm broken inside
once again i thank you
once again i pour out my life....