had a rather unexpectedly long choir prac today, was expecting it to end quick. but in the end we wasted to much time dragging the practice with lousy singing and all. super waste time aye.

pattaya, or not? i really don't see how we can go there and compete when there's gonna be less that half the choir going there, or maybe slightly more. i want to go, but yet i'm worried about my studies, plus whats the point of going when the main people who you've gone through so much with aren't going? is this a choir? this is not even a choir. i don't feel any spirit. no aim, no nothing. going for the sake of going. then whats the point?

this is totally not the case of, the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. more like the flesh is willing, but the spirit is weak. oh well.

hopefully things would get sorted out real soon. otherwise more and more people are just gonna get emotional. GOD please give us a solution.

anyway had lunch with fran, huping, may, kenny, yuting. turned out to be really a fruitful lunch with lotsa talk haha. the bus ride home was fruitful as well! at least i managed to churn out some stuff i've been keeping to myself.

i'm really trying to figure out. there are seriously some things at this point of time in my life that are worth fighting to keep, some things which are not. which are the things which are worth my effort? i really don't know. everything i do somehow affects the other, although i try really hard to maintain a balance.

i also don't want myself to get too emotional, too disturbed. i mean, i sorta realised maybe its not worth it. although there have been many times in the past where i've just let myself be thrown into the middle of things and sink into this emotional world of my own.

maybe i should just learn how to let go. maybe.

Labels: whenitallcomesdown.

had a rather unexpectedly long choir prac today, was expecting it to end quick. but in the end we wasted to much time dragging the practice with lousy singing and all. super waste time aye.

pattaya, or not? i really don't see how we can go there and compete when there's gonna be less that half the choir going there, or maybe slightly more. i want to go, but yet i'm worried about my studies, plus whats the point of going when the main people who you've gone through so much with aren't going? is this a choir? this is not even a choir. i don't feel any spirit. no aim, no nothing. going for the sake of going. then whats the point?

this is totally not the case of, the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. more like the flesh is willing, but the spirit is weak. oh well.

hopefully things would get sorted out real soon. otherwise more and more people are just gonna get emotional. GOD please give us a solution.

anyway had lunch with fran, huping, may, kenny, yuting. turned out to be really a fruitful lunch with lotsa talk haha. the bus ride home was fruitful as well! at least i managed to churn out some stuff i've been keeping to myself.

i'm really trying to figure out. there are seriously some things at this point of time in my life that are worth fighting to keep, some things which are not. which are the things which are worth my effort? i really don't know. everything i do somehow affects the other, although i try really hard to maintain a balance.

i also don't want myself to get too emotional, too disturbed. i mean, i sorta realised maybe its not worth it. although there have been many times in the past where i've just let myself be thrown into the middle of things and sink into this emotional world of my own.

maybe i should just learn how to let go. maybe.

Labels: whenitallcomesdown.