i bought a new pink shirt from topman today! and i kinda like it. although in the end i kinda regretted buying it, cos it costed 69 bucks, well like i always do. haha. then i tried convincing myself that well hmm pink matches with chinese new year, cos i could have gone for the one with the cat high things at the shoulders, which was more unique and only cost 10 bucks more ): and then i stopped thinking about it till now when i showed my mum the shirt and she said my dad bought 3 nicer shirts for 45 bucks only.

well, haha my mum was lying. my shirt is confirm nicer. but still. lol.

ah well. expensive lesson! nevermind, at least i got my first shirt from topman (: now i got a topman set of t-shirt, shirt and boxers. maybe more to add to the collection next time!

hmm ok well i should say today was time well spent with choir people and i felt kinda good about it. cam whored a hell lot on esplanade rooftop and talked alot of crap. felt abit like the old days, but this time with lotsa year ones. haha.

went for vocal consort concert at night! they we're really very good cos the girls were really airy. and there was one part of the concert when haha, ok shan't say so bad. but people who were there should know which part i'm THINKING about. yes the kongbah part. lol.

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don't you think the weekends really pass too quick? all i did was chem mcq and chemspa notsothorough studying. so little breathing space, yet so much to do, and so much to think about.

today it happened again. have you ever had the feeling of wanting to see someone who turns out not to be there, and then you realise that that person is already with someone else? i'm not sure whether its even a feeling at all.

and then, when you think about it, you get this really sinking sensation and theres this funny awful feeling in your chest, something between physical and emotional. trying to fight it, you put on a facade, or try to push the thought to the back of your head and find something to laugh about.

moreover, if its been happening time and time again, now when it comes back to your head the painful feeling starts to fade, and then you just feel like you're giving in to this feeling, or even more so giving in to the purpose of its source. what's worst, it doesn't even feel like jealousy. you don't even know how to give a term for it.

such things just make you lose this feeling that you yearn to keep.

i don't really feel emo now. i just feel, like i don't wanna care anymore.

chemspachemspa. goodlucktomyself.

i bought a new pink shirt from topman today! and i kinda like it. although in the end i kinda regretted buying it, cos it costed 69 bucks, well like i always do. haha. then i tried convincing myself that well hmm pink matches with chinese new year, cos i could have gone for the one with the cat high things at the shoulders, which was more unique and only cost 10 bucks more ): and then i stopped thinking about it till now when i showed my mum the shirt and she said my dad bought 3 nicer shirts for 45 bucks only.

well, haha my mum was lying. my shirt is confirm nicer. but still. lol.

ah well. expensive lesson! nevermind, at least i got my first shirt from topman (: now i got a topman set of t-shirt, shirt and boxers. maybe more to add to the collection next time!

hmm ok well i should say today was time well spent with choir people and i felt kinda good about it. cam whored a hell lot on esplanade rooftop and talked alot of crap. felt abit like the old days, but this time with lotsa year ones. haha.

went for vocal consort concert at night! they we're really very good cos the girls were really airy. and there was one part of the concert when haha, ok shan't say so bad. but people who were there should know which part i'm THINKING about. yes the kongbah part. lol.

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don't you think the weekends really pass too quick? all i did was chem mcq and chemspa notsothorough studying. so little breathing space, yet so much to do, and so much to think about.

today it happened again. have you ever had the feeling of wanting to see someone who turns out not to be there, and then you realise that that person is already with someone else? i'm not sure whether its even a feeling at all.

and then, when you think about it, you get this really sinking sensation and theres this funny awful feeling in your chest, something between physical and emotional. trying to fight it, you put on a facade, or try to push the thought to the back of your head and find something to laugh about.

moreover, if its been happening time and time again, now when it comes back to your head the painful feeling starts to fade, and then you just feel like you're giving in to this feeling, or even more so giving in to the purpose of its source. what's worst, it doesn't even feel like jealousy. you don't even know how to give a term for it.

such things just make you lose this feeling that you yearn to keep.

i don't really feel emo now. i just feel, like i don't wanna care anymore.

chemspachemspa. goodlucktomyself.