hello. i'm blogging (:

right, i just stepped home, but i just decided to do this first. the emotion i'm feeling now is really hindering my typing, because i really dunno what to say. everything feels messy, messy. why do i always feel this way? its weird because when it comes to things like these i just let my emotions do the thinking.



why can't i control my thoughts better?
i hate jumping to conclusions.
i hate thinking negative.
i hate to see things and let my mind run wild on them.



oh well. amidst the tea party today, amidst the pool, amidst the talk after dinner, i've had alot of time to just think. and sometimes i can't help but admit the things you guys say do have an impact on me. some part of me, can't face up to reality. some part of me is still living the dream. while some part of me feels happy. i don't know. all these stuff somehow contradict. and i really can't figure, because whenever i feel like i'm sure, something just comes along and blows me off. ah. i hate drifting in and out of the emo world.



really starting to think. that i really don't deserve it


i'm so sorry for taking you for granted in the past.
expecting nothing in return. yup. the true meaning of it.



rah. if only you could tell me in the face.



thanks to the peeps at the table just now. i appreciate the people around me. i really do.



thank god for friends (: and of course the funny stuff that happen. like JOHNNIE SPITTING TEA ALL OVER YUTING AND KENNY :D hahah.

and i say, bitching is bad. lol.

with that, i'm off (:

hello. i'm blogging (:

right, i just stepped home, but i just decided to do this first. the emotion i'm feeling now is really hindering my typing, because i really dunno what to say. everything feels messy, messy. why do i always feel this way? its weird because when it comes to things like these i just let my emotions do the thinking.



why can't i control my thoughts better?
i hate jumping to conclusions.
i hate thinking negative.
i hate to see things and let my mind run wild on them.



oh well. amidst the tea party today, amidst the pool, amidst the talk after dinner, i've had alot of time to just think. and sometimes i can't help but admit the things you guys say do have an impact on me. some part of me, can't face up to reality. some part of me is still living the dream. while some part of me feels happy. i don't know. all these stuff somehow contradict. and i really can't figure, because whenever i feel like i'm sure, something just comes along and blows me off. ah. i hate drifting in and out of the emo world.



really starting to think. that i really don't deserve it


i'm so sorry for taking you for granted in the past.
expecting nothing in return. yup. the true meaning of it.



rah. if only you could tell me in the face.



thanks to the peeps at the table just now. i appreciate the people around me. i really do.



thank god for friends (: and of course the funny stuff that happen. like JOHNNIE SPITTING TEA ALL OVER YUTING AND KENNY :D hahah.

and i say, bitching is bad. lol.

with that, i'm off (: