i'm feeling kinda drained right now, both physically and mentally. yes. firstly all the choir pracs plus running around plus last nights "evaluation" session has really left me exhausted. such that i slept throughout today's entire homily. shucks. and i'm tired of being emo, but its something i can't really control. if the emoness is turned on, its turned on.

that reminds me why someone once told me that i'm quite emotion orientated.

oh well.

my throat seriously hurts because last night i didn't have enough sleep. and today i kinda sang out loud in the morning, like i always do. now it feels even worse. and then after choir prac i just felt kinda dead walking around bugis and ps and all, as in physically yea. now i don't even feel like exercising although i see the need to. guess i shall start on a REAL diet tmr. and routine exercise. yes.

anyway, i really hope tmr's canteen doesn't turn out to be a flop. just now we realised we didn't do so much stuff and there is so much to worry about. stuff like the petty cash, manpower, collecting of food, plates and utensils. blah. in the end me soo jes and joan went to ntuc to buy the coffee and tea and stuff then after that me and soo went to changwang to buy the french loaf. and had to get jon to help out with the plates and all. otherwise TMR WE CAN'T SERVE OUR FOOD. OH THE HORROR. yea and i was trying to settle the coffee and tea and all this afternoon and my dad had to irritate me. shan't elaborate on it.

was reading dawnie's blog and i saw that one of her wants is to learn how to make cheesecake! hahah. yay then we can all go her house and pig after that. like always (:

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i dunno why this is happening. one minute i feel so close, one minute so distant. i don't want to give up because i don't even know whether i still stand a chance. do i?

hmm.

i want god back in my life.
i really do.
but what is stopping me?
what?

i wonder what happened to my trust in his will.

i'm feeling kinda drained right now, both physically and mentally. yes. firstly all the choir pracs plus running around plus last nights "evaluation" session has really left me exhausted. such that i slept throughout today's entire homily. shucks. and i'm tired of being emo, but its something i can't really control. if the emoness is turned on, its turned on.

that reminds me why someone once told me that i'm quite emotion orientated.

oh well.

my throat seriously hurts because last night i didn't have enough sleep. and today i kinda sang out loud in the morning, like i always do. now it feels even worse. and then after choir prac i just felt kinda dead walking around bugis and ps and all, as in physically yea. now i don't even feel like exercising although i see the need to. guess i shall start on a REAL diet tmr. and routine exercise. yes.

anyway, i really hope tmr's canteen doesn't turn out to be a flop. just now we realised we didn't do so much stuff and there is so much to worry about. stuff like the petty cash, manpower, collecting of food, plates and utensils. blah. in the end me soo jes and joan went to ntuc to buy the coffee and tea and stuff then after that me and soo went to changwang to buy the french loaf. and had to get jon to help out with the plates and all. otherwise TMR WE CAN'T SERVE OUR FOOD. OH THE HORROR. yea and i was trying to settle the coffee and tea and all this afternoon and my dad had to irritate me. shan't elaborate on it.

was reading dawnie's blog and i saw that one of her wants is to learn how to make cheesecake! hahah. yay then we can all go her house and pig after that. like always (:

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i dunno why this is happening. one minute i feel so close, one minute so distant. i don't want to give up because i don't even know whether i still stand a chance. do i?

hmm.

i want god back in my life.
i really do.
but what is stopping me?
what?

i wonder what happened to my trust in his will.