blog revamp! this time i promise its real. but the thing is i realised that only when i start to feel depressed about stuff, then i start to blog. good cos shows that i haven't been that depressed in a long time. bad cos i think after this period of depression my blog will enter again enter in extinction. well anyway yea these past few days haven't been the best for me, or should i say, its been the worst period of time i've experienced in a long long while. well indeed there are more than one factors contributing to my state of unrest, and i don't really know how to deal with them la.

i've been reflecting on my personality. sometimes i wonder whether my personality is something good or not, cos i'm the kind of person who loves to make people laugh. its like the best feeling in the world, but then again, i feel like i'm not allowed to bring on my personality at where i am now. i've tried, but at times it hasn't been that successful. and i think it was this that started me thinking, it just sucks when you have this feeling that the stuff you say is totally irrelevant and nonsensical and stuff. oversensitive? maybe. could be. should be. i do hope so. i just feel that i'm not used to this yet. maybe i need more time, maybe....

god really comes to you when you're feeling super low. when the feeling of dejection fell upon me like a huge rock in the sky, god immediately came into my mind. and no i'm not feeling dejected cos i feel i can't fit in into where i am right now, but cos of something else. anyway, i wonder what i'll do without him. pouring out your woes to your friends, yes it helps, but there is only so much your friends can do. ultimately, the only person who can heal you is god the father himself. although sometimes i feel indifferent to his presence, most of the time, its really comforting to be able to talk to someone, even if it seems as if he's not there. on the cab home just now jamie was like saying she finds praising god for something like helping you to mug for your exams, when its actually your own hard work and merit, is retarded. logical? doesn't make me sway away from my belief. god is there, i know he's there.

4 weeks away. some of us have started to dream, hopes put high, yet it still seems difficult. though it has only been 2 months plus, i must admit that i feel drained, tired, weary. usually they say if you have the passion for something, nothing can stop you from getting tired of it, but somehow i'm starting to doubt. yes today's sharing/talk was morale boosting, it woke us up, it gave us renewed confidence, but i wonder how long i can continue this way. the small period of euphoria, of enthusiasm, just seems to fade away so quickly. we need to push forward together guys, we need to fulfill expectations. "as long as you do your best, the results will take care of itself" pray for strength and unity. let's chiong together, let's mug our scores when we die in dota. yes lets do it, just do it, and hope we don't falter.

06S64. class that rocked, class that seems to be quite torn apart by the reality of this world. well, never knew how impt certain people were, until it came the time for them to leave. we came with different personalities, diff backgrounds, yet somehow, we bonded, we fought, we walked together for the past month. i dunno what to feel, i dunno whether i should feel anything. but i don't want anybody to leave, i know it. then again, there always comes a time when we have to part. yes its sad and hard to accept, but we have to carry on with our lives. i appreciate the fact that each one of us have become friends, and i really do hope we continue to cherish these friendships, be they in storm or disaster. i'll never forget the times....never. ever.

lent is a season of sacrifice, to offer up in spirit and truth our entire beings to christ
remember that he died on the cross for us, remember that he died to save us, remember....
everytime you feel like sinning, remember...
everytime you feel like doing something against his will, remember...
in whatever you do, remember...

once again i looked upon the cross where you died
i'm humbled by your mercy, and i'm broken inside
once again i thank you
once again i pour out my life....

blog revamp! this time i promise its real. but the thing is i realised that only when i start to feel depressed about stuff, then i start to blog. good cos shows that i haven't been that depressed in a long time. bad cos i think after this period of depression my blog will enter again enter in extinction. well anyway yea these past few days haven't been the best for me, or should i say, its been the worst period of time i've experienced in a long long while. well indeed there are more than one factors contributing to my state of unrest, and i don't really know how to deal with them la.

i've been reflecting on my personality. sometimes i wonder whether my personality is something good or not, cos i'm the kind of person who loves to make people laugh. its like the best feeling in the world, but then again, i feel like i'm not allowed to bring on my personality at where i am now. i've tried, but at times it hasn't been that successful. and i think it was this that started me thinking, it just sucks when you have this feeling that the stuff you say is totally irrelevant and nonsensical and stuff. oversensitive? maybe. could be. should be. i do hope so. i just feel that i'm not used to this yet. maybe i need more time, maybe....

god really comes to you when you're feeling super low. when the feeling of dejection fell upon me like a huge rock in the sky, god immediately came into my mind. and no i'm not feeling dejected cos i feel i can't fit in into where i am right now, but cos of something else. anyway, i wonder what i'll do without him. pouring out your woes to your friends, yes it helps, but there is only so much your friends can do. ultimately, the only person who can heal you is god the father himself. although sometimes i feel indifferent to his presence, most of the time, its really comforting to be able to talk to someone, even if it seems as if he's not there. on the cab home just now jamie was like saying she finds praising god for something like helping you to mug for your exams, when its actually your own hard work and merit, is retarded. logical? doesn't make me sway away from my belief. god is there, i know he's there.

4 weeks away. some of us have started to dream, hopes put high, yet it still seems difficult. though it has only been 2 months plus, i must admit that i feel drained, tired, weary. usually they say if you have the passion for something, nothing can stop you from getting tired of it, but somehow i'm starting to doubt. yes today's sharing/talk was morale boosting, it woke us up, it gave us renewed confidence, but i wonder how long i can continue this way. the small period of euphoria, of enthusiasm, just seems to fade away so quickly. we need to push forward together guys, we need to fulfill expectations. "as long as you do your best, the results will take care of itself" pray for strength and unity. let's chiong together, let's mug our scores when we die in dota. yes lets do it, just do it, and hope we don't falter.

06S64. class that rocked, class that seems to be quite torn apart by the reality of this world. well, never knew how impt certain people were, until it came the time for them to leave. we came with different personalities, diff backgrounds, yet somehow, we bonded, we fought, we walked together for the past month. i dunno what to feel, i dunno whether i should feel anything. but i don't want anybody to leave, i know it. then again, there always comes a time when we have to part. yes its sad and hard to accept, but we have to carry on with our lives. i appreciate the fact that each one of us have become friends, and i really do hope we continue to cherish these friendships, be they in storm or disaster. i'll never forget the times....never. ever.

lent is a season of sacrifice, to offer up in spirit and truth our entire beings to christ
remember that he died on the cross for us, remember that he died to save us, remember....
everytime you feel like sinning, remember...
everytime you feel like doing something against his will, remember...
in whatever you do, remember...

once again i looked upon the cross where you died
i'm humbled by your mercy, and i'm broken inside
once again i thank you
once again i pour out my life....