something dawned on me today. i suddenly realised that i'm actually holding on to certain things, things that are actually weighing me down, things that are actually distracting me. i wonder if i could ever let go of them, but from the looks of it, i don't think its quite possible. it's amazing how daily encounters can change the way i think and feel about different people. sometimes these feelings get worse, sometimes better. i thank god for the better thoughts, but i blame my own over sensitiveness for the bad ones.

simeon's testimony today came as rather touching for me. what aunty corinne (correct spelling?) mentioned in the prayer was true, the reminder about what we are made for, how we were created each uniquely to do god's will. the transformation i've seen in simeon and the other sec 3s have somehow reminded me about myself. i could just remember myself being lost in the wilderness at the beginning of the year, but yet within such a short period of time, i'm totally at a new spiritual level.

through log and the youth ministry, i slowly discovered the gifts got had bestowed on me, which were previously hidden deep within, somewhere inside of me. but not only has HE helped me to open my box, HE has also helped to mould and shape my talents to become better. i don't remember being able to sing well, i don't remember being able to create and shape music so easily, i don't remember knowing how to play the guitar, neither do i remember myself being able to speak confidently in front of others. YES. THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME THIS REMINDER TODAY!

the thing bout knowing god better through prayer sounds logical, but it's also true that this is something many of us struggle to achieve. ok maybe not many of us, maybe only some. no maybe only me. haha. but to sum it all up, i've been finding it really difficult to pray nowadays. sometimes i also find it tough to concentrate during mass when facing the eucharist. i try to tell myself, BEHOLD! GOD IS IN FRONT OF YOU! but inside of me it's like, ok yea i know but what's the use. i don't know what to do, maybe its because i haven't gone for confession? sometimes i wonder whether i'm praying to god or talking to myself. haha. i should try to pray more, with more reverence and concentration. hmmmm

ok i think that's enough of reflections for tonight. shan't say too much, in case you guys get lost in my chain of thoughts. haha. shall end off with a few thanksgivings.

1. thank you jesus, for helping aunty frances go through the operation safely and helping her to recover fast.

2. thank you jesus for allowing us to meet the sec 3s and allowing us to grow in faith with them.

3. thank you jesus for the gift of you. i wouldn't have made it if not for your love. amen.

something dawned on me today. i suddenly realised that i'm actually holding on to certain things, things that are actually weighing me down, things that are actually distracting me. i wonder if i could ever let go of them, but from the looks of it, i don't think its quite possible. it's amazing how daily encounters can change the way i think and feel about different people. sometimes these feelings get worse, sometimes better. i thank god for the better thoughts, but i blame my own over sensitiveness for the bad ones.

simeon's testimony today came as rather touching for me. what aunty corinne (correct spelling?) mentioned in the prayer was true, the reminder about what we are made for, how we were created each uniquely to do god's will. the transformation i've seen in simeon and the other sec 3s have somehow reminded me about myself. i could just remember myself being lost in the wilderness at the beginning of the year, but yet within such a short period of time, i'm totally at a new spiritual level.

through log and the youth ministry, i slowly discovered the gifts got had bestowed on me, which were previously hidden deep within, somewhere inside of me. but not only has HE helped me to open my box, HE has also helped to mould and shape my talents to become better. i don't remember being able to sing well, i don't remember being able to create and shape music so easily, i don't remember knowing how to play the guitar, neither do i remember myself being able to speak confidently in front of others. YES. THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME THIS REMINDER TODAY!

the thing bout knowing god better through prayer sounds logical, but it's also true that this is something many of us struggle to achieve. ok maybe not many of us, maybe only some. no maybe only me. haha. but to sum it all up, i've been finding it really difficult to pray nowadays. sometimes i also find it tough to concentrate during mass when facing the eucharist. i try to tell myself, BEHOLD! GOD IS IN FRONT OF YOU! but inside of me it's like, ok yea i know but what's the use. i don't know what to do, maybe its because i haven't gone for confession? sometimes i wonder whether i'm praying to god or talking to myself. haha. i should try to pray more, with more reverence and concentration. hmmmm

ok i think that's enough of reflections for tonight. shan't say too much, in case you guys get lost in my chain of thoughts. haha. shall end off with a few thanksgivings.

1. thank you jesus, for helping aunty frances go through the operation safely and helping her to recover fast.

2. thank you jesus for allowing us to meet the sec 3s and allowing us to grow in faith with them.

3. thank you jesus for the gift of you. i wouldn't have made it if not for your love. amen.