friends. something just made me think back upon the past today, those friends that i once had and now are gone, those who are still here but not as close as before. friendship is such a unpredictable thing, it can make you so happy at times, but it can also plunge a knife right through your heart. thinking about all the things i had done with my good friends in the past, i just wish i could go back there right now. but these are now just memories, happy, yet painful memories.

spritually low, that's how i've been feeling recently. jesus is so close to me all the time, yet i still choose to reject him. it may be because of my guilt, or my unworthiness, or maybe i could have been just too tired to even spare some time for him before i sleep. there's this sick feeling inside of me that i wish i could get rid of, which seems to spread all over me, especially during mass. it's like some burden that is weighing my heart down, sucking up my spirituality, suffocating me. i just hope that i can deal with it somehow, even though i almost felt like just giving up.

on the bright side, i'm glad that i still have many of my friends out there who certainly brighten my day. no matter how inhibited i can feel, having these people around never fails to bring a smile to my face. haha. thank you all thank you all(:

i'm just worried about my studies now. 11 points without moderation, wonder whether i'll make it to vj. i think i might be studying wrongly, so i better find a way to improve on my current self. for me, nothing seems gratifying enough, but i'll just have to accept things as they come. remember me in your prayers my friends, i'll remember you too. god bless!

friends. something just made me think back upon the past today, those friends that i once had and now are gone, those who are still here but not as close as before. friendship is such a unpredictable thing, it can make you so happy at times, but it can also plunge a knife right through your heart. thinking about all the things i had done with my good friends in the past, i just wish i could go back there right now. but these are now just memories, happy, yet painful memories.

spritually low, that's how i've been feeling recently. jesus is so close to me all the time, yet i still choose to reject him. it may be because of my guilt, or my unworthiness, or maybe i could have been just too tired to even spare some time for him before i sleep. there's this sick feeling inside of me that i wish i could get rid of, which seems to spread all over me, especially during mass. it's like some burden that is weighing my heart down, sucking up my spirituality, suffocating me. i just hope that i can deal with it somehow, even though i almost felt like just giving up.

on the bright side, i'm glad that i still have many of my friends out there who certainly brighten my day. no matter how inhibited i can feel, having these people around never fails to bring a smile to my face. haha. thank you all thank you all(:

i'm just worried about my studies now. 11 points without moderation, wonder whether i'll make it to vj. i think i might be studying wrongly, so i better find a way to improve on my current self. for me, nothing seems gratifying enough, but i'll just have to accept things as they come. remember me in your prayers my friends, i'll remember you too. god bless!