one thing i can say, nothing ever stays fresh on my mind. on the way home just now i had thought of so many things to blog about, but now sitting in front of the com, nothing seems to come to my mind. this is my pain, in the blogging world. haha.

my life in the band has been rather smooth sailing, since i was sec 1. i remember having dreams of being a senior leader, becos i liked the fame, the recognition. i think almost everyone thinks that way, except those who have no ambition whatsoever in their own lives. best recruit award, i could still remember. this really made me happy, and gave me the push to work even harder to acheive my goal. sometimes when i'm even asked to do the most tedious jobs, i would just take it on without a word. but those were the times when i was young and naive. i never really knew what a senior leader did, till i became one.

in the beginning everything seemed so slack, so great. i had power and i didn't do much, somehow i didn't felt any sense of guilt. i just enjoyed it. moreover the teacher in charge at that time was helping the 4 of us alot, mistakes we made were easily forgiven. but now at this point of my life, when i look back, i see many things i shouldn't have done, which i did.

it was only when mr heng began to take an active role in the band when my mindset was changed, my attitude and all. i really thank him for that, for making me realise my other responsibilities, for helping me to wake up. the many scoldings i received, the slamming sessions, no i didn't like them at all. not only was it hurting to my pride, it too made me dislike him even more each time. never did i know that his high demands, his high expectations have developed a change in me. within my inner self, i was starting to become more aware, more alert of things around. i did more for the band, and leaded the band better. knowing that i wasn't anywhere near a good one before this.

four years. four years. i wonder whether i have made full use of this duration. the recent silver that we got at WMC was shocking, hurting. i didn't know how to react at all, but it didn't come as a suprise to me. the first note we played and i immediately knew it was not to be. the sacrifices we sec 4s have made, the time we spent training daily till the sky became dark, all our effort seemed to just go into the drain. just like that. of course, it was my first ever real setback in the band, since we've always been doing so well in national competitions. then i suddenly thought of the O's and the prelims, and now i'm scared. what if i don't do well after this? after this all of us began blaming ourselves. the wrong notes, the bad intonation, we all admitted it. even mr heng blamed himself for not giving us a last pep talk before we went in. he cried beneath his strong appearance, which is a seldom sight. even mark cried, the drum major that we have, the drum major that loves the band so much. to say the least, he's the only one who has been ever so influential and motivating to everyone. a person the band couldn't have done without.

we didn't come back victorious, we came back stronger. yes indeed this would prove to be a stepping stone for the band, to help us soar to greater heights. the night of our competition day we were invited to play for the WMC closing ceremony. and it was a great and unforgettable experience i must say. crazy europeans dancing to the tunes of our abba gold, tequila, was just a joy to watch. our much improved english folk song suite and jericho, was comforting to our hearts. the feeling of honour at being chosen to play the dutch national anthem for the people, us being foriegners. i thank god for all this. and i thank him for the enjoyable time all of us had at brussels and paris.

i thank every single person in the band who have played a part in my life, especially to my fellow dear sec 4 pals. mark, ambrose, yizha, dexter sie, eugene etc. you guys rock! and special thanks to mr edwin heng for playing an integral part in improving my role as a leader, plus my conductor ms tan yiang hoon, for bringing me to another level of music and exposing me to its wonders. this entry i specially dedicate to all of you. may god bless.

p.s. you can check out my WMC photos here ===>http://community.webshots.com/user/superliver89

one thing i can say, nothing ever stays fresh on my mind. on the way home just now i had thought of so many things to blog about, but now sitting in front of the com, nothing seems to come to my mind. this is my pain, in the blogging world. haha.

my life in the band has been rather smooth sailing, since i was sec 1. i remember having dreams of being a senior leader, becos i liked the fame, the recognition. i think almost everyone thinks that way, except those who have no ambition whatsoever in their own lives. best recruit award, i could still remember. this really made me happy, and gave me the push to work even harder to acheive my goal. sometimes when i'm even asked to do the most tedious jobs, i would just take it on without a word. but those were the times when i was young and naive. i never really knew what a senior leader did, till i became one.

in the beginning everything seemed so slack, so great. i had power and i didn't do much, somehow i didn't felt any sense of guilt. i just enjoyed it. moreover the teacher in charge at that time was helping the 4 of us alot, mistakes we made were easily forgiven. but now at this point of my life, when i look back, i see many things i shouldn't have done, which i did.

it was only when mr heng began to take an active role in the band when my mindset was changed, my attitude and all. i really thank him for that, for making me realise my other responsibilities, for helping me to wake up. the many scoldings i received, the slamming sessions, no i didn't like them at all. not only was it hurting to my pride, it too made me dislike him even more each time. never did i know that his high demands, his high expectations have developed a change in me. within my inner self, i was starting to become more aware, more alert of things around. i did more for the band, and leaded the band better. knowing that i wasn't anywhere near a good one before this.

four years. four years. i wonder whether i have made full use of this duration. the recent silver that we got at WMC was shocking, hurting. i didn't know how to react at all, but it didn't come as a suprise to me. the first note we played and i immediately knew it was not to be. the sacrifices we sec 4s have made, the time we spent training daily till the sky became dark, all our effort seemed to just go into the drain. just like that. of course, it was my first ever real setback in the band, since we've always been doing so well in national competitions. then i suddenly thought of the O's and the prelims, and now i'm scared. what if i don't do well after this? after this all of us began blaming ourselves. the wrong notes, the bad intonation, we all admitted it. even mr heng blamed himself for not giving us a last pep talk before we went in. he cried beneath his strong appearance, which is a seldom sight. even mark cried, the drum major that we have, the drum major that loves the band so much. to say the least, he's the only one who has been ever so influential and motivating to everyone. a person the band couldn't have done without.

we didn't come back victorious, we came back stronger. yes indeed this would prove to be a stepping stone for the band, to help us soar to greater heights. the night of our competition day we were invited to play for the WMC closing ceremony. and it was a great and unforgettable experience i must say. crazy europeans dancing to the tunes of our abba gold, tequila, was just a joy to watch. our much improved english folk song suite and jericho, was comforting to our hearts. the feeling of honour at being chosen to play the dutch national anthem for the people, us being foriegners. i thank god for all this. and i thank him for the enjoyable time all of us had at brussels and paris.

i thank every single person in the band who have played a part in my life, especially to my fellow dear sec 4 pals. mark, ambrose, yizha, dexter sie, eugene etc. you guys rock! and special thanks to mr edwin heng for playing an integral part in improving my role as a leader, plus my conductor ms tan yiang hoon, for bringing me to another level of music and exposing me to its wonders. this entry i specially dedicate to all of you. may god bless.

p.s. you can check out my WMC photos here ===>http://community.webshots.com/user/superliver89