OK this entry is gonna be rather unfocused. cos on 5 other windows i'm talking to friends on msn. plus another one which is LOG infested. haha. KRISTIN! you today in suaning mood izit. haha. father ho, all his fault. haha.

anyway today started off really badly. woke up in the morning feeling a HUGE BURDEN on myself. all the unstudied textbooks, all the undone hw, all the unsettled band admin stuff. PRESSURE PRESSURE PRESSURE. just suddenly came upon me in the morning. TODAY of all days. then while i was brushing my teeth, alot of stuff were going through my mind. things like how i'm gonna die if i dun start soon, things like how to even GET myself to start. i'm like, shit, 3 days left before school starts.

i was totally like at a loss. WHAT SHOULD I DO?? so yea i went in front of the altar and prayed. i wanted all these weights to be lifted off me! JESUS IS MY CRANE. haha. i suddenly had this yearning to go to church, sit inside the adoration room and go for mass. actually band was supposed to finish at like 6 or 7, but in the end it ended at 2! cos mr heng sent me a wrong message and gave me the wrong impression that the interview was today. so yea in the end i managed to do what i thought i wouldn't be able to do! PRAISE GOD for that.

sat in the adoration room and tried to talk to god. somehow or another i feel that whatever i'm saying is all crap. i'm crapping with jesus, as in literally crapping. model sentences coming out, not from my heart, it's quite a struggle i'm facing. but oh well the entire day i was saying, I NEED JESUS I NEED JESUS. yes i do need him, because without him i'll become a pancake under all my stress. if only i could chat with jesus on msn, that would be so darn nice. jesus needs a computer and an internet connection. starhub unlimited? yea that'll do fine. haha. let's burn one for him. ahhh crap.

to serve and not to be served. that's the altar servers motto! and today's gospel was bout that. haha. anyway this week's readings are all bout abram. today's one was kinda confusing, what bout sarai throwing her slave to abram. then abram hug the slave then she conceive? *runs ard in squares* haha. oh well then the slave ran to dunno where then the angel of the lord appeared to her! and said go back to sarai then she will have alot of descendents. haha. wah having alot of descendents is like kind of an attraction hor in the old testament. applies with abram. NAME YOUR SON ISHMAEL. dunno what. i really cnb. haha.

proton weera say very easy to discern god's will for you leh. really meh? do it without conditions of your own, just do what he tells you. hmmm. i dunno if i'm doing that, most probably not. i shall reflect more and think harder! show me the way, my saviour! my current status: lost sheep. haha. cya peeps.

My Saviour,Redeemer,
Lifted me from the miry clay,
Almighty, Forever,
I will never be the same,
Cause You cam near,
From the everlasting,
To the world we live,
The Father's only Son

You lived,and You died
You rose agin on high
You've opened the way,
For the world to live again,
Hallelujah,For all You've done

OK this entry is gonna be rather unfocused. cos on 5 other windows i'm talking to friends on msn. plus another one which is LOG infested. haha. KRISTIN! you today in suaning mood izit. haha. father ho, all his fault. haha.

anyway today started off really badly. woke up in the morning feeling a HUGE BURDEN on myself. all the unstudied textbooks, all the undone hw, all the unsettled band admin stuff. PRESSURE PRESSURE PRESSURE. just suddenly came upon me in the morning. TODAY of all days. then while i was brushing my teeth, alot of stuff were going through my mind. things like how i'm gonna die if i dun start soon, things like how to even GET myself to start. i'm like, shit, 3 days left before school starts.

i was totally like at a loss. WHAT SHOULD I DO?? so yea i went in front of the altar and prayed. i wanted all these weights to be lifted off me! JESUS IS MY CRANE. haha. i suddenly had this yearning to go to church, sit inside the adoration room and go for mass. actually band was supposed to finish at like 6 or 7, but in the end it ended at 2! cos mr heng sent me a wrong message and gave me the wrong impression that the interview was today. so yea in the end i managed to do what i thought i wouldn't be able to do! PRAISE GOD for that.

sat in the adoration room and tried to talk to god. somehow or another i feel that whatever i'm saying is all crap. i'm crapping with jesus, as in literally crapping. model sentences coming out, not from my heart, it's quite a struggle i'm facing. but oh well the entire day i was saying, I NEED JESUS I NEED JESUS. yes i do need him, because without him i'll become a pancake under all my stress. if only i could chat with jesus on msn, that would be so darn nice. jesus needs a computer and an internet connection. starhub unlimited? yea that'll do fine. haha. let's burn one for him. ahhh crap.

to serve and not to be served. that's the altar servers motto! and today's gospel was bout that. haha. anyway this week's readings are all bout abram. today's one was kinda confusing, what bout sarai throwing her slave to abram. then abram hug the slave then she conceive? *runs ard in squares* haha. oh well then the slave ran to dunno where then the angel of the lord appeared to her! and said go back to sarai then she will have alot of descendents. haha. wah having alot of descendents is like kind of an attraction hor in the old testament. applies with abram. NAME YOUR SON ISHMAEL. dunno what. i really cnb. haha.

proton weera say very easy to discern god's will for you leh. really meh? do it without conditions of your own, just do what he tells you. hmmm. i dunno if i'm doing that, most probably not. i shall reflect more and think harder! show me the way, my saviour! my current status: lost sheep. haha. cya peeps.

My Saviour,Redeemer,
Lifted me from the miry clay,
Almighty, Forever,
I will never be the same,
Cause You cam near,
From the everlasting,
To the world we live,
The Father's only Son

You lived,and You died
You rose agin on high
You've opened the way,
For the world to live again,
Hallelujah,For all You've done